the uncertainity within;

zai jian xiao xue(hearty paws) is nice!!! super touching, which means i cried quite abit also.. haha.. went with daddy.. he travelled all the way here juz to watch movie with me.. touched lahz, can.. daddy, pls be honoured! (cuz im touched) =P and i wanna tell u that.. no matter what happens, i will be here.. (my turn to say it back to u) i promise.. wun leave de le.. =) and a very big JIAYOU! i wanna give u.. apple for u..

ytd lao po told me something.. i super huge compliment =D cuz some weeks back, when lao po was waiting for me at far east, her frenz accompanied her.. its a girl and her bf.. so when i met up with her.. the two of them saw me.. den according to lao po, the next day the girl went and ask her if im a girl that has alot of guys after.. lao po answered, eh how u know.. den the girl replied that the both of them think so, and cuz i have x-factor.. and this x-factor thingy is said by her bf, which is a guy, tat's y she felt that it really is true.. den lao po was agreeing the whole time.. the above is really all my lao po told me.. not i create my self de.. =P isnt this like a big compliment? cuz it came from someone that u dun even know.. juz seen once and briefly at tat too.. =)

i juz dun understand, how could the 2 of us who used to so close, juz lose contact with each other? u said that u already kan kai for the clique de this friendship, cried befre, think it thru before and tried to salvage it, but we juz drifted apart.. i said i did all those too, juz thinking of these friendships juz made me teared.. the 2 of us were so close and were in the same boat.. we were sisters, were lao po and lao gong.. wat juz happened??!! can u pls tell me??!! u said that u really treasure our friendship.. said all those touching and moving words.. but now? look at us.. we dun chat over phone, we dun chat online, we dun msg each other, not even those simple gd night or silly msges.. all that we have in contact now, is when this clique has "outings", to celebarte birthdays and etc.. which kind of close frenz only have this type of brief contact? do u know how upset i was when i heard from lao po that the two of u went out, without me? its not only once tat she saw the two of together without me.. lao po said she saw u and her together and where and where, y i nv go.. izzit cuz i was busy..? i went, i dun even noe the two of u went out.. lao po gave de, oops, said the wrong thing expression.. izzit juz me who's juz trying to hold on to this friendship and get back to where we used to be.. or izzit juz that u had given out on the friendship for this clique, including mine.. what has changed? me, you, the friendship.. or izzit juz simply time washing away everything, letting whatever good tat there used to be to fade away with the passing of time.. like the wave hitting the shore and when it leaves, bringing away what used to be on the sand.. i really miss, miss the times we had and miss this friendship... i want it all back.. want it all to be reality again.. but maybe its juz going to take a miracle..

*im tired, really tired..*

♥ metamorphosis;

doodle straight into my heart 11:03 PM

melissa =)
22nd sept

darlings
him <3
kate spade
burberry
purple & colours
dancing
heels
shopping
checks and podka dots

creepy crawlies

travel around the world
have my own fashion line
dancing lessons
shop till i drop
moolah to drop from the sky and straight into my wallet =D

charlene
cheng de
jason
liyi
kaiyi
zi ting
xinyi

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