the uncertainity within;

went out with my sec sch frenz ytd.. had kenny rogers for dinner.. den chill at the bridge in front of fullerton hotel ( dunno wat's that bridge called), den went over to starbucks to chill again.. took some pics at the bridge.. =) the 3 main things that we normally do when we meet ar, having dinner, walk-a-thon, and keep asking where to go next and what to do next while remaining stationary at a location..

to be honest, i didnt even tried ytd.. gave up trying.. i have changed, i know that.. and i dun really fit well with them any longer, i know that too.. so i have quit trying.. thus, at their efforts for trying to make me sit with them during pool session to chat with them numerously surprises me..

"frenz" that's an overrated word.. how bout trying "acquaintances"

okie.. and my tat stupid backache is back.. more persistent den ever today.. haunting me ever since i woke till now.. and to state.. i woke up at 10+, and now its like 3+, a "wonderful" 5hrs... and its stil not showing any signs for relenting.. hmmm.. and tat backache is recurring more often now.. guess i show really drop by the doctor's sometime.. *scary* haha..

thanks for all that u had given.. the memories and everything.. the in the moment heat of thing, the laughters, the silliness u brought about.. no idea y but i juz feel like thanking u now.. for no particular reason, but juz feel like doing it.. it could be due this, due to that.. but whatever it is.. its still afterall a thanks.. =)

*crazy lil' thoughts filled my mind.. i wonder, y did i thought of all those, its weird, isnt it? since i have realised and recognized it long ago*
*i thought, i juz thought......*
*i still want an answer though it wouldnt really have mattered now.. i juz wanna noe have i ever mattered before to u, was the sweetness and care geniune, was the sweet nothings a real reflection of what was felt.. or was everything juz an illusion that we both had, the ambugity is hanging around and questions are left unanswered.. mister.. kindly an answer for me, thank you.. juz dun avoid it anymore when i asked, that's all i asked for now, cuz i really wanna noe.. no idea y, but the sudden rush of wanting an answer juz came to me.. could be the love stories that i had been reading, leading me to the search for the answer that i had long wanted to know.. im waiting... waiting for the day that i could say in here excitedly i have the answer! and not just keep questioning wat's the answer and when i will get it*

♥ metamorphosis;

doodle straight into my heart 3:12 PM

melissa =)
22nd sept

darlings
him <3
kate spade
burberry
purple & colours
dancing
heels
shopping
checks and podka dots

creepy crawlies

travel around the world
have my own fashion line
dancing lessons
shop till i drop
moolah to drop from the sky and straight into my wallet =D

charlene
cheng de
jason
liyi
kaiyi
zi ting
xinyi

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