the uncertainity within;

i was in a HAPPY HAPPY and JOYOUS mood!!!!!!!!!
and i was dumb enough to go check my email.. i didnt expect anything.. juz regularly checking..
and i saw an email that totally destroyed my mood...
thanks ar.. thanks sooooooooo much..
u this freaking person... actually freaking group of ppl...
u guys disappointed me so much.. till i have become numb from disappointment from u guys..
what u guys doing now, actually is useless.. completely, utterly useless...
what u guys are doing now, juz make my insides churn inside out.. makes me wanna puke..
knowing how some ppl/creatures can be so freaking fake..
u 2 really deserve each other... u and the stupid meow meow.. now i know why u 2 got together...
and i saw the another couple today...
u guys really make me feel disgusted... i cant find an appropriate word to describe how much u guys disgust me.. really.. no single word can be used to describe, cuz no matter how strong the word is, it will never ever be enough..
after what u guys done, forget it... i dun even give a goddamn care to whatever friendship hat we used to have.. or should i say "friendship"? cuz i dun think it had really existed..
u guys were just using me, weren't u guys.. and i was dumb enough to be used..
feel really stupid when i thought of the things i did for u guys...
maybe cuz it was the near lowest point of life when i met u guys.. that's y i felt comfort and believed what u guys fed me..
but now im back... i saw thru it.. though too late, but at least i did...
seriously i have NO interest in seeing u guys ever ever again..
well well now... i wun give a damn to u guys..
im still a happy, happy, lucky lil' girl.. even more so now, feels even luckier, cuz im not with u guys anymore.... it feels soooooooooooooooooooooo great! =D
but i owe u guys a thanks.. cuz u guys make me realise how ugly ppl can get, and how freaking cruel this society/world can be..
those money and feelings that i lost to u guys... i dun mind... its really worth this priceless lesson..
im going to be back into my HAPPY HAPPY and JOYOUS mood... =D

♥ metamorphosis;

doodle straight into my heart 10:19 PM

melissa =)
22nd sept

darlings
him <3
kate spade
burberry
purple & colours
dancing
heels
shopping
checks and podka dots

creepy crawlies

travel around the world
have my own fashion line
dancing lessons
shop till i drop
moolah to drop from the sky and straight into my wallet =D

charlene
cheng de
jason
liyi
kaiyi
zi ting
xinyi

designer- joy.deprived

images&brushes - deviantart

artists - FaerieNymph, kedralynn (deviantart)

brushes - exotika, sunira, cruiza, elizavet (deviantart)

fonts - dafont

software - Adobe Photoshop 7.0 & Macromedia Dreamweaver 8.0

*please keep the credits as they are =) thankyou.