the uncertainity within;

WOW!! its really shocking...
though i had known it all along den u dun really like me... its pretty obvious...
but to condemn me this way, its totally a whole new insight for me...
this world is nv fair, everything that u want, u would have to fight it for yourself, for all rights and etc...
some of the stuff said, could be applicable to yourself...
im fake, so are u... dun u think so?
putting up a false pretence, isnt it fake too?
any unhappiness u can juz spill it and trash things out...
rather den "suffering" alone and in silence, y not juz put every thing straight once and for all?
we all have no intention in making u isloated or leave u alone...
u feel that i have taken away ur place in the group???
maybe i did, but from wat i had seen, have u really put in the effort to be with us?
im a bitch? probably true, i dun deny it... but sometimes if u juz pent up all anger within, u are going to blow up sooner or later...
i admit, i have nv taken a real liking to u, but i can say i have nv really said lots of stuff about ur personality, except for the work u produced, up till this afternoon...
maybe i dun know u well enough and u dunno me well enough...
maybe our style of working doesnt clicks...
maybe our way of thinking differs...
but i nv truly had the intention of doing anything to hurt u as badly as u describe...
im sorry if i did, but i guess its all irreversible...
im going to make an effort from now on.. cuz i nv knew i was tat BAD in your eyes...
an effort to be frenz... cuz im a straightforward person, those who know me well enough, i believe all of them had been hurt by me in some way or another...
i sorry for the hurt caused, cuz its me, im not saying, it ok for me to hurt others, but sometimes its juz been done unintentionally...
for projects, not that i dun wanna give u anything to do, but its not juz me, we are all afraid...
afriad of what u would produce...
if u want ppl to trust and respect what u have done...
PLS do something to earn it, cuz complaining and being such a "poor thing" would not cut it...
this world is cruel, and if u feel that what u had experienced now is in preparation for the real world, i can tell u that its so so wrong...
cuz the world outside, its much more hateful den this...
haha... okie, enough with my rattling and opinions...
its juz that, i juz felt strong about it, but anyway, im not going bo on this topic anymore...
its a once and for all thingy...
~its back to the heart of my projects whirlwind for now, too much to accomplish, too little time~
jiayou ppl!!! =D

♥ metamorphosis;

doodle straight into my heart 11:36 PM

melissa =)
22nd sept

darlings
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checks and podka dots

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travel around the world
have my own fashion line
dancing lessons
shop till i drop
moolah to drop from the sky and straight into my wallet =D

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cheng de
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liyi
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zi ting
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