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2010-03-04T21:36:00.003+08:00

Hahahahahaha.
Has been a long long time since I came in here. =P
Just wanted to post this.

"Lollipops turns into cigarettes. The innocent ones turn into sluts.

Homework goes in the trash. Mobile phones are being used in class.

Detention becomes suspension. Soda becomes vodka.

Bikes becomes cars. Kisses turns into sex.

Remember when getting high means swinging on the playground?

When protections means wearing a helmet?

When the worst things you could get from boys are cooties?

Dad's shoulders were the highest place and Mum was your hero?

Your worst enemies were your siblings. Race issues were about who ran the fastest.

War was only a board game. And the only drug you knew was cough medicine.

The most pain you felt was when you skinned your knees, and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow?

And we couldn't wait to grow up?"

-Author unknown (taken from Rozz's blog)

How very true.
When we were young, all we wanted was to grow up and be big.
Be able to wear the nice clothes, buy the nice stuff, be a big girl/boy, so that no one will call us a kid again.
Thinking that we would all be oh-so-mature and do whatever we wanted.
Yet when we grew up and as time passes us by, all we wished for was time could be reversed.
Hoping that we can go back and be young once again, experience how it felt to be carefree and without worries, doing what we wanted when the worst that could happen was a scolding/beating from our parents.

This is life.
And we humans, are so contradicting.

2010-01-02T15:20:00.002+08:00

Happy 2010! ^^

First post of 2010. =)
Review the year that has past. Haha.
2009 has been a total slacking year. Seriously.
Nothing accomplished.
The only thing accomplished is meeting my dearest baby! =D
He has bought lots of joy and and laughter to me, letting me summing up 2009 as a year of love for me. =)
7 months, and many more to come.

Laopo has been total love too! Though I didnt really meet up with her in '09.
Muz meet up more often kay!
And all the best for her exams. It's the last lap before she graduates! ^^
I will be waiting for you with the forever friends bear dearest! =D

It has been my big 2-1 birthday too.
Am officially a "grown-up" now.
Haha. As they say, after 21st, all you do is just to get older. Oh no!! >.<

My new year resolution list, which hopefully i will follow through.
Haha, cuz like every year i not even halfway through it! =P

First and foremost, stop slacking and procrastinating!
2.Find a full time job asap! (haha, die die must ar, if not >.<)
3. Save at least 3k. =)
4. Start doing property with baby. ^^ along with motivating him.
5. Treat baby nicer! (haha, been a big bully to him in 2009 =P)
6. Travel overseas twice
7. Blog more religiously (will do so if i have a new lappy! den can upload photos also)

Haha, shall not be too greedy. That's all!
If i follow through at least 2, some of my other wishlists would come true too. ^^v

2009-10-25T03:02:00.002+08:00

Happy 5th month baby! ♥

2009-10-22T02:16:00.002+08:00

Short update =)
No pics though, blogger is taking a gazillion years to upload the photos @_@

Bintan trip was fun!
Absolutely love <3
Cuz it was with love, my dar dar ^^v
Went was jet-ski with was exhilarating and i got to drive it!
Did a bit of snorkeling too, really just a bit =P
Was really tourist-y, I had a flower clip on the side of my hair.
Haha =)
Didnt really take pics of the palce, but it was more of us zi-lianing.
Pics are with him, havent gotten it yet.
Those in my phone are super troublesome to upload, but i love the pics in there, so I will definitely upload, there are some super cute pics of him eating lollipop! =D

Am working for roadshow this week, and he was a total sweetie ^^
He picked me from home ytd and had breakfast with me before going for his lessons
And today he came and picked me up, which was a surprise.
Was so surprised and happy to see him there =D
He had to travel 1 and half hr to my workplace, total love <3

There was a time that I was thinking meeting and finding a good guy, doesnt mean he's yours, and I was wondering.
But now I'm sure, mine's definitely for keeps, a sweetie pie for me! =D

2009-10-07T03:00:00.002+08:00

Wahaha, I havne't been updating for the longest time.
I have tons and tons of overdate stuff to update on
Like my big 2-1, except that the day itself wasn't a big hoo-haa and i have yet to receive the pics.
Lots of pics to upload, which i predict is going to take a gazillion years. >.<
And my dear friend, Chu Jun's wedding.
Her gowns are all very beautiful and she looked super gorgeous.
Oh, not to sure if you guys know who is Yutaki, I do read his blog.
And I saw him today. He's like ultra skinny.

Think these few days have been quite hard on sweetheart.
Been losing my temper quite abit.
Which equals to hurting him.
I'm so so sorry, baby. =(
But he's nice and patient to tolerate me time and again.
Thanks for all the love, care and concern (haha, qtss core values, =P) that you have showered on me.
You are really like none other.
I'm really glad that I met you, baby.
And that you are mine. <3
This weekend, we are going for a short gateaway to Bintan!
So excited. Totally can't wait. =D
This shall be the celebration for my birthday, 4th month and his birthday.

Lastly, an interesting note worthy of thoughts:

Play like an all star.

Party like a rock star.

Live like a super star.

F*** like a porn star.

^-^

Till i update on the pics and events! =D

2009-09-18T07:57:00.004+08:00

I'm here blogging cuz I cant sleep, at all.
Got out of my bed at near 7am.
Spontaneously decided to make myself french toast with cheese.
Baby, too bad you don't get to eat it. lalalala =b

Met up with Miss Charlene like a month ago.
Simple meet up and she bought me to a place at bugis.
The sundaes are super nice! *yummy yummy*

I always get complained that my eyes are so big ><

So always take a pic or 2 with "small" eyes. =b

Met my dearest laopo on Mon.

Did a small movie marathon, we watched The Time Traveler's Wife and I Love you, Beth Cooper.

The first was super touching.

Teared like mad.

Then,I went to borrow the book from Ke Yan. =)

The latter was quite funny, not much of a climax kinda movie though

Cuz it was quite funny throughout.

But when it ended, I was like huh? ended?

We did something blur yet funny at the same time.

We took the wrong direction of the train when we wanted to head home.

Luckily she realised and we alighted at the next stop, this group of guys behind heard us and were laughing their ass off. =X

I envy laopo.

Cuz of her skin.

Like Hello, she never puts on make up and she can look so flawless in pics.

Mine is totally g.o.n.e.

Have no idea where she is looking at. Haha. =P

See the extra hand behind?

After we took the shot, we were like where did the hand came from?

Then we realised that it was probably the posters on the underground station, cuz we were on the MRT.

I think I look very different in my photos. As illustrated from the photo below.

Look much prettier. Wahaha. =P

Not that I use photoshop (can't photoshop to save my life), but cuz of those few angles.

The "you will always look pretty" angles. ^^

Taken quite a while back, and I still don't have the photos cuz baby had no idea where the camera was. -_-"'

He told me that he has bought some clothes for me in Amsterdam. =D

Will know his taste from them. Wahaha. =P

I miss him. 29 sept faster come, kay =)

Btw, my sis and I 2 slightly insane kids.

Do whatever we like as long as we feel like it, hence we are having a bbq this Sat.

We feel like bbq-ing so we plan one, with her birthday celebration being the "shun bian" issue.

Wahaha.

Have already gotten her a birthday gift, with Baby sharing. =)

And my mum told me that my parents got me something very old fashioned. o.O

My guess is something gold, then my sis was like I think its a gold chain. ><

2009-09-11T16:31:00.001+08:00

天靈靈　地靈靈　給我指引我不知道　應該放開手　還是抓緊

2009-09-02T00:55:00.004+08:00

I wanna watch movies!!! =X
I'm interested in so many can. =$

Coco Before Chanel
District 9
Year One
BandSlam
The Time Traveller's Wife
G Force
I Love You, Beth Cooper

Hello, where have my movie khakis gone too? =(

And I haven bought my panda coin pouch too =X *sadded*
~*~
3 sweet months have passed, many more to come. =D
3rd month was at high tea at Equinox (the 70th storey restuarant)
Thanks baby for the lovely treat. ^^

Food was pretty normal.
View was amazing! =B

Sweetest, you are love ♥

2009-09-01T01:57:00.005+08:00

Long overdue of mister sam pics!

This mister, super uber hard to take pics with!

Eh, how old already still don't wanna take pics. =P

I had to like come out with options like "take 1 nice one", "take 10", so he reluctantly took them with me.

Wahaha, cuz I had the camera on hand and kept pestering him the moment we met up. =D

He wanted to go The Cathay to watch movie, we were at ION.

I whine about it being far and lazy to walk.

So he "act" emo. -_-"

Still refusing to look at the camera.

Saya photos taken with this pose will be "artistic" ><

Asked me to take it with him o.0

Finally a decent shot =X

And he was saying he's tall, so have to lean back, so he 'sliding off" the seat =$

We took 9 pics, hello, 9 pathetic pics then he said enough le.

I complained not 10 yet, then he took this shot. (by putting my cam on the floor)

He claims that its "artistic" and "very nice".

~*~

Caught "Where got Ghost" with sweetest on Sun.

Short day, but every moment is love. =D

He bought me a soft toy!

Chip from Chip & Dale, just cuz I say its super cute.

Total sweetheart. ^^

My cutie! ♥

Wahaha, he's going to kill for putting this up. =P

Oh well, its up in facebook too! =D

Baby, just so you know, I'm stuck. on. you ♥

PS: like what I cooked ritez? ^^

you can come over next time so that you can help me wash up! =P

cuz I hate doing that part. =X

want to eat, must help a little. =b

2009-08-12T13:44:00.003+08:00

Blogger has decided to dislike me and refuse to let me upload the photos. =(
The pics with Mister Sam shall be up another time.
That guy ar, really make me puke blood.
Think the national blood bank will be more than willing to collect the amt of blood. =P
But still he's like my bff, hope we stay that way forever.
He's one who I can tell everything to, really everything inside out right. =)
I really hope for us to stay that way and nothing ever changes.
Even after what had happen. +.+

Love the lyrics of this song, it is sung by xiao gui.
Title - 不屑

事情如果那麽簡單那就好了
想讓自己不見
瞬間就通通消滅
人類如果沒有心臟那就好了
受傷不會流血
悲傷也不會流淚

不需要有同類
傳染頹廢
不需要愚昧的尊嚴
不需要去偷竊你的思念
自我安慰

就讓我僞裝我嘴角不屑
讓孤獨乘以更孤獨的兩倍
允許我保留我最後一點點特權
赦免我想念你的心碎
如果眼神裏閃爍不屑
可能我心裏一半已經殘廢
那一半跟著你走遠了的那一天
這一半漸漸地瓦解

如果我還有一點點不屑
别想要說服我純潔的絕對
我只是世界上物種絕種的絕類
悄悄的失眠了一光

年如果我還有一點點不屑
那是我自己虛榮心在作祟
自以爲或許有一天我們會重疊
我可以再愛你第二遍

Am having this freaking sore throat now.
It hurts like mad. =X
Can feel that its trying its very best to torture me. >.<

Went to watch meteor shower with baby ytd.
It wasn't exactly a shower, but still nice nevertheless. =D
What you said there, gave me the simple plain assurance that I was looking for. =)
Just like you have no idea what's bothering me and what I'm brooding over,
Those simple sentences just simply gave the answer without me realising.
And all I wanna do now is to curl up and fall asleep in your warm embrace,
As I know with you around, the pain's that keeping awake would seem far away enough. ^^
You know you are simply ♥

ps: this date is the draft date when I copy the lyrics, haha.. I'm actually doing this like on 14 aug, 2.51am. =P

it's different now, isn't it?
i wish you didn't told me about it
i wish that i have no idea about it
i wish time could turn back
no matter how hard we try to be normal act as we don't care, deep down we know it has started to change
tearing away at what we have bit by bit
i wish i didn't tease you about it
look where it has brought us to
i want the ease, i really do
don't wanna lose it cuz it took us so long to be where we are now =(

2009-08-11T12:40:00.005+08:00

Met up with laopo on sat.
She's forever love. =D
Shopped around at marina square and bugis.
We shall work hard to earn money and then spend like nobody business kay. ^^

Out ION with joby on thurs.

Haha.

ButI totally forgot to take pics with her.

Only the food. =P

The food's pretty nice.

Tjis is even more back dated.

Went out with Miss Pei Wen.

After like not seeing her for around 1yr.

Haha.

Slacked and chatted at Sakae from almost its opening and closing hours for dinner.

Haha, that's what you get when put 2 girls together. =P

Think the dessert's nicest among all the fod.

Cuz the standard has dropped like mad. =X

The normal shot.

She has she has small eyes, so I attempted to be "small eyes" too.

Apparently, I failed.

Haha. =B

The ugly.

The cute.

Haha.

Gotta go, am real late.

AM so gonna get killed by Mister Sam. =$

Yikes!!!

2009-08-10T03:04:00.002+08:00

I totally feel like being a jealous bitch.
Throw tantrums, lose my temper.
Just wish I'm not that sensible.
Just wanna wail and bawl like a little kid demanding for stuff.
All the pent-up, frustrations.
Wanna let all the nothing-things come right out.
Feel like picking a fight just because i wanna let all out. But I know deep down, I dun want it to end.
Am feeling so freaking pissed off.
Bitchy lil' bitch.
Guys really just dun get it, don't they? =X
I take back my words of wanting to fall ridiculously deep.
Cuz the feeling totally sucks.Hate the feeling of me knowing just how much more I could fall.
Sucks big time. You have no idea how I felt when I heard that.
SO totally vulnerable.
Naked and exposed.
Hate the feeling of being all needy and wanna be around him so freaking often.
Defend system on all-time high red alert mode.
ARGH..............!!!!
Feel like pulling all my hair out.
Fuck!
Off.

2009-07-17T14:24:00.008+08:00

Throats sucks like mad!
I hate sore throats! =X

It has been a long long while since I had catch up with my pri sch mates.

Finally meet up with shihui, ting and beng choo on tues! =D

Had dinner at Shin Tokyo/Ramen Ten at clementi.

The reminiscing of the past.

The fun and laughter just simply reminds me of how innocent, young and carefree we were back then.

About do we still remember who and who, the teachers we love and hate.

The easy talk on who we had a crush back then.

The fights we had, yes we do fight, literally, blood and all.

Haha. =D

Can't wait to see them again!

But shihui is going back to Aussie soon, too bad she wun be able to join us for the meetups. =P

Caught Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince with baby ytd.

2 out of 5 nachos.

Big disappointment. =X

Instead of focusing on the dark and magical part involved, it was more love oriented.

The major fighting scenes were ALL not shown.

Esp the last part where all death eaters were fighting in the school.

And Dumbledore's death was made so mudane, so normal, hardly justice to the "greatest wizard" title.

Oh wells, its just a show.

Haha.

And I was discussing with my sis that the movie Deathly Hallows would definitely be much better.

First off, the book wasnt that great to begin with, in addition that the movie is going to be split into the 2 parts, which means much more details.

So ya, this is what they meant by no expectations, no disappointment. =)

And there was shopping! =D

So so, as usual, poor baby had to walk and walk with me around.

But still, the feeling of shopping around with him is different of those with gfs. =D

We chatted and this topic lingered in my mind for the longest time.

I have always marvelled at how amazing it is to have a long relationship, get married, have kids and be with one till your hair grows white.

Like dearest xm, 4 years and still going strong. (when's your wedding ar?? =P)

Like my frenz who is getting married this sept, she have been with her guy ever since i know her like min 3yrs ago.

Like my frenz who is happily married with the cutest kid now.

Like the elderly couple that I saw on the beach walking hand-in-hand.

Cuteness, sweetness and love does not sustain it all.

A relationship takes effort, time and more.

Its a give and take, compromise, complementing each other package that requires the 2 holding hands to wrap it together.

I wonder if I will be able to do it all, while not losing myself. =)

2009-07-11T00:20:00.003+08:00

Something totally random.
I did something dumb today.
I must be dreaming, cuz I fell had a minor trip while alighting from the bus.
Landed on my right knee. =X
Nothing too major though. Just some slight abrasions. =)

And I totally wanna shop and shop and shop and shop! =$
The shopping bug bit me real hard. =X
I miss Taiwan. =(

2009-07-09T15:07:00.004+08:00

Was looking through my photos and saw this.
Brings back the Taiwan trip memories.
Absolutely miss the shopping there. =X
Totally cant imagine that this was the amt of luggage we had when we came back.
Scary! =P (well, only 4 was mine ^_________^)

Am attempting to update this space more dilligently. =D
All I need is wireless and my lappie to be back up. =(

Meals could the simplest affair.

No lavish locations, nor expensive delicaies.

As the long as it is with the sweetest person.

It would be love. =D

And, you are my sweetest drug. ♥

On a side note, his sis introduced me the comic skip beat!

Damn nice! =D

Totally addictive =P

2009-07-01T20:57:00.002+08:00

It was a long long day yestersday.
One that indeed stretched right till the morning.
Shopping was the main agenda of the day. =P
The amount of walking I made him do.
Haha. Poor boy. ^^
Thanks baby for everything! =D
And for what happened at night, am sorry for it. =(
Emotions are kinda hard to control. =X
You are still my sweetest, you know that. <3

And you!
You the reason why I don't like coming back.
Would rather be outside, stay out late, party my life away.
Buzz off my back.

2009-06-15T03:14:00.004+08:00

After slacking aka not working for 3 months, I'm officially bored.
Life is boring without work and without being busy.
Spell B.O.R.I.N.G in caps pls.
Just that I would have to shift that lazy butt and hands of mine to look for a job asap.
Like immediately.
Am certainly not intending to rot my life away.
But since this is one last slcaking period that I will wanna take before I take the on the path of working adult, I shall make the best out of it.
Enjoy life, party the days away, meet up with with friends, bascially going out and spend as though my bank account is a bottomless pit, which by the way is so not true. =X
Admist the broing and nua-ing days, there certainly are some fun ones and always people to brighten up the day, put a smile on my face. =)
Tons of photos, and I really mean tons and tons of them are rotting away in the folder.
Will upload them when I'm feeling oh-so-not-lazy. =P
And I'm here typing this away cuz my sis wants me to wait for her game to level up. =(
Oh wells, shall try my very best not to be lazy this week, too much stuff waiting for me to do and complete.
Off for now. =)

*when i trust, i trust totally and completely, am placing my trust in you now. make me believe, teach me how to fall, ridculously deep*

2009-06-01T02:31:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry darling.
I lied.
Am gulity as charged.
Am really trying though.
Yet the heart feels locked, chained.
Far too chained that I'm not liking it much either.
Give me time, some time, it might probably be better.
And I really don't want to hurt you.
I could sense how afraid that I would slip by.
You are far too much of a sweetie, too good a talker.
And I don't trust people who are too good with words.
<3

2009-05-26T01:59:00.001+08:00

Had been afraid. Was afraid. Am afraid. Still afraid.
Am taking a chance now.
Make me believe.
I really do want it to happen.

2009-02-22T12:04:00.002+08:00

Hahas...
Its been since a while I came here. =P
looking for any recent news/updates on my life?
Gotta wait till Im have more time on and I upload all the photos. =D

It's been quite a while since I last saw you.
Not too sure if it was you that I saw last night, but I guess so.
No butterfiles, but my heart still skipped a beat.
I guess I'm still thinking of you then. =)

2008-12-30T02:07:00.001+08:00

Don't tell me.
Don't ask me.
Cuz I have no idea how long I can last.
*read fatigue-obar-metre*

2008-12-23T02:11:00.002+08:00

The strong mixture of feelings.
The happiness, the sadness, the tough times, the disputes, the disagreements, and fun, joy and laughter, etc...
Somehow, somewhat, the end is slowly creeping and closing on us.
Can't possibly say how much I love you guys and great friends you guys have been.
Cuz it's its really beyond words as the gratitude and love towards you guys is unmeasurable.
Unknowingly, the year is ending soon, with the christmas approaching is just 2 days time.
I'm still at a loss and swaying between staying and leaving.
The bond is so much there that I can't bear to leave.
Yet, considering other factors, somehow leaving would seem to be a good choice either.
The recent works of us have not help and made my decision any easier.
Seeing us and experiencing us getting tighter and slowly getting through and climbing up from the bottom really strikes the chord within me.
It's really "United We Stand", ya. =)
How I hate changes and departures.
Yet, its all inveitable.
The smile will always stay. =D
And we still have Kushin Bo to look forward to.
Add oil, my dear partners!! =D

2008-12-09T22:58:00.003+08:00

心灰意冷
Saying goodbye and leaving are the hardest to do.
However, sometimes in life, choices have to be made,
To tender, or not to tender.
I'm on the brink, on the verge, this very close to leaving everything behind.
Once I have let go of something, I will never look back.
Think about it, miss it, regret it, yes.
But never look back and attempt it once more.
That's me.
22 more days.
If that's the end.

2008-12-08T22:51:00.002+08:00

If only someone who tell me what to do.
Tell us what to do.
Mis-communication, communication breakdown, positions, trust, friendships, roles that we play, faith, stress, pressure, motivatiob, money, happiness, confidence, drive, forbiddence and oh so much more has constitue to where we are now.
Answer & solutions, everyone are looking for them.
Time waits for no one.
All of us needs time.
Time and obstacles make us stronger.
Is this going to make or break us?
If its the bond that is holding us together, will it bring us through all odds?
So much running through my mind, so much that I have no idea how to express them in words.
Accumulative stress, pressure and disappointment kills.
And I'm being murdered slowly, bit by bit, step by step.
Off.

2008-11-29T01:18:00.000+08:00

突然好想你

2008-10-27T20:33:00.002+08:00

I wonder how mad can a person be at himself/herself.
Cuz if its possible, I pissed off with myself to almost the max.
Knowing what I can do, yet not doing it.
Knowing how to do it, yet not achieving it.
It is very frustrating knowing lots of stuff for a matter of fact, yet not applying them.
Or at least not applying in the way that you know you can and apply them in the postive way to help myself.
Sometimes it gets so tiring that I feel like giving up.
Seriously I bet everyone has the thought of giving up so many freaking times, yet they push on.
As the saying goes, as the going gets tough, the tough gets going.
I want to the tough one and moving ahead and doing what I want and achieving what I know I can.
And guess what, I'm actually typing this during my roadshow hours, not working, taking a break and ranting and letting off steam.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm like fucking freaking pissed off and bloody mad at myself.
Get the hell out.

Can someone tell me what to do?
I have nothing much on my mind, yet this one whole single matter is bothering the hell out of me and no solutions have come to mind as yet.
It is compelling in nature, urgetly needs to be solved, yet takes time to build, heal and resolve.
If only things are back to near picture perfect those years back.
If only there were "if only's" and time could turn back, this world be such a much better place and be this pretty little place we all live in and call home.

This sucks. Totally. Completely

The missing is not present.

The thought of you is not present.

Yet, somehow, somewhat, you are affecting me.

2008-10-17T19:28:00.002+08:00

I'm like freaking sick.
For the past few days, my throat feels like having multiple tiny cuts on it.
It is better now.
However, now my nose feels like it is dropping off my race (almost literally like a running away nose).
And my head feels like it is going to drop off my neck. (fyi, i have been typing this short sentence for like upteen times, just cuz my mind and hand can't coordinate in the current foggy state).
Being sick in midst of being busy, solving problems and making up sales results, is NO fun at all.
I wish I had the ability and the mind to do and clear things fast enough, because ime is never enough and it all seems to pass by oh-so-fast.
And I lost the jade I bought in Taiwan, which costs over $200 and the best part, it is blessed and it is supposedly to be helping me.
I'm quite upset by the fact that I can't find it,am hoping that it is in some part of my house or in one of my bags.
Oh well, no worries, I will be back into the pink of health soon!
And the good news is, I'm back.
Honestly, broken link is still not found, however, I have a new found motivation. =D
Wish me luck, peeps, I need tons of it. =)
Abacadabra!!!

2008-10-03T23:36:00.003+08:00

I hate to disappoint people.
Sad to say, I have been quite a disappointment of late.
But no worries, I will be back.
Slowly moving back to the track now.
And I will be better than before.
Like revised and improved edition. =D

UFO catchers.
Those egg-turning machines.
Something for me, please.
These bring happiness to me.
I am that simple and easy to please. =)

No matter how different we are,

Somehow it still boils down to the same fundementals

2008-09-30T16:25:00.002+08:00

When you have no freaking idea what the fucking problem(s) is/are, you just want to run and run and run.
In hope of being able to out-run all of it.
And to hide in a shell, being protected from the fierce fierce world.
I do realise that I'm just running away, giving excuses of not wanting to face all of it.
Can I just cry and bawl like a kid for all I want, cuz I have never being able to do it.
Scream into the wide open space, shout at the horizon over the sea.
Let out all the suppressed emotions, in hope that it would make me feel better.
Find out what the fucking problem is and fix that damn broken link, before it breaks me.

As much as I hate this, I still want to go through it, cuz I know it will make me a stronger person.

I just want to be truly, genuinely happy for once.

Want to stop acting

It's getting real tiring

Want to stop pretending

That everything is ok, when nothing is

Want to just be me

Without having to worry about anything

2008-09-25T23:19:00.002+08:00

It's very heartening to know that your friend still cares.
I was very surprised to see the email, but nevertheless, it shows that I had make the right friend!
Hence, I'm so in love with the song Happy Birthday by Corinne May now.
In midst of this period I'm losing myself, losing the bearings and moving in circles, it has been really great recieving well wishes and meeting up with friends for my birthday.
The celebration this year was not like a major affair which I had initally plan.
On the contrast, it was totally the simplest affair separated into many days.
The meals, the fun and the presents are total love.

On the down side, I am still currently like a spoilt compass which is totally clueless about the direction.
What had happened? What had changed? I have no idea.
I used to be so sure and certain of every step, planned and having contigency plans in line.
But now?
No one else can help me and untie this knot, other than myself.
Wish me luck, peeps.
Off.

Somehow, I wish that you were by my side, at least providing the shoulder for silent worries and fears.

2008-09-15T21:16:00.002+08:00

I'm speechless.
Totally at a loss of words.
About my current life.
My current situation.
I hate being caught up in a position whereby I can't do anything.
Off.

2008-08-26T21:25:00.003+08:00

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways, but narrower viewpoints.
We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less.
We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time.
We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.
We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
We’ve learned how to make a living, but not a life. We’ve added years to life not life to years. We’ve been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor.
We conquered outer space but not inner space. We’ve done larger things, but not better things.
We’ve cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul.
We’ve conquered the atom, but not our prejudice.
We write more, but learn less.
We plan more, but accomplish less.
We’ve learned to rush, but not to wait.
We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships.
These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes.
These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.
It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom.
A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete…
Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.
Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.
Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because t hat is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn’t cost a cent.
Remember, to say, ‘I love you’ to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.
Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.
Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.
AND ALWAYS REMEMBER
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away…
-taken from desmond koh's blog

Found the above very meaningful.
I'm going to hug more and kiss more (eh, maybe? haha) to show my love.=)
And below is what I wrote.
Seriously, the list goes on and on, but I think I have wrote enough. =)

It's weird how people always expect love when they don't love enough.
How they want respect but are not respecting others.
How they want more trust when they are not doing anything to gain it.
How they always complain but never do anything to start making changes.
How they always think that others are at fault and do not take a moment to see if they are in the wrong.
How they take things for granted and regret when it's gone.
How they could blabber on others' secrets and expect people to keep theirs.
How they could lie blantly and always expect truth from others.
How they are constantly wanting more when they perpentually giving less.

~

A simple thanks will do.
What is so freaking hard about saying a simple word of thanks or showing a mere simple gesture of appreciation?
After covering your ass and not saying omg-ly so much truth, its the least that I should be getting.
Where is god damn fucking appreciation?
You don't even appreciate what others are doing for you.
You would just love to live that small little pretty world of yours with all you friends and your bf, won't you?

I thought we were friends, good friends at that (or at least used to be).
It's almost a month away and I'm informing you now, so you could make arrangements and all.
And you actually said it depends on whether you have tennis lessons.
Seriously, is any tennis lessons conducted at night?
How much does a tennis lesson cost? Max $200 per session maybe ( I have no whatsoever concept towads tennis)?
From what you are doing, you telling me that tennis is more important than me, like thanks.
Absolutely thanks, I'm not even worth 200 bucks?
I feel so freaking upset and hurt.
Once again, thanks babe, YOU really really "made my day".

I really Really REALLY feel like running away and hide to somewhere whereby no one else can find me.
Where I can be all alone and live in my small (yes, very very small) pretty little world.
Where are you when I need you now?
A shoulder, pls, thank you.
Forget it, guess I don't need it from you, you this liar and player.
Crap, I feel so fuck up about my life right now.
Off.

2008-08-24T03:25:00.002+08:00

I just want to run away from responsibilities and hide.
To somewhere far far away.

2008-08-16T00:05:00.003+08:00

Simple Questions, Complicated Answers
Why is abbreviated such a long word?
Why does monosyllabic have five syllables?
Why isn't phonetic spelled the way it sounds?
Why is a carrot more orange than an orange?
Why are there interstate highways in Hawaii?
Why do we drive on parkways and park on driveways?
Why are they called apartments, when they're all stuck together?
Why do scientists call it research when looking for something new?
Why do they call it a building? It looks like they're finished. Why isn't it a built?
Why is it when you transport something by car, it's called a shipment, but when you transport something by ship, it's called cargo?
If vegetarians eat vegetables, what do humanitarians eat?
If price and worth mean the same thing, why priceless and worthless are opposites?
Is there another word for synonym?
Is it possible to be totally partial?
- from AcraMax

Just to share, interesting and funny, aren't they? =)

And fate is really such a miraculous thing. If you have it, you have it. If you have lost it and its gone, it would be truly gone.

2008-08-13T20:41:00.008+08:00

August 6
Did a catch up with Mr Sam, my brother cum sister for 8 years and counting. =)
Hello, can u imagine deciding a place for dinner was so so difficult.
He was supposed to plan and decide, but but but..
Finally to have it at Coffee Club.

His baked rice

My dory fish

The free dessert

And and he hate taking photos, so no photos this time round.
But he does owe me one NICE shot.
Wahaha, the key word is nice. =P

August 9
National Day, which I had mentioned previously, a day which I so don't want to stay at home.
Had dinner at Jack's Place.
Ended up going k-box with my sis till 4+, reach home only at 5am.
Haha, aren't I a bad sister, bringing my younger sis out till so late.
And I did get nag by my mother for that.
But on the other hand, my sis should be glad that she has a open minded sis(me), otherwise she wouldn't be able to do what she is doing and told me what she has said. =)

My sis is not in the pic, cuz she said her hair was messy -_-"'
And I'm so fat!!
Gosh, really ought to start slimming down (I have been saying this since forever, haha)

August 11
August 6 is Miss Chua Jingyi's birthday.
Had a mini celebration (haha, give presents only) and did a short catch up at MOS Burger. =)

My present for her =)

A flower for Miss Charlene who is having a rough time.
Cheer up girl, all will be well soon! =D
Anything can find me, foc de. =P

The birthday girl with her presents (chopper's from charlene)

Jingyi, Charlene, Hui Yi (jingyi's sis), Me

Zi lian at my very messy living room in my pjs.
Haha, and I love big head shots, cuz dun get to see my fat fat body! =P

Hmmm, and is the name test about me accurate?
Lovelies, would you to give me your comments on how true they are?
Cuz, outsiders can always see things clearer. =)

To share something funny which I read from my friend's blog.

人生就像强奸，

反抗不了，

就要好好享受。

工作就像轮奸，

你不行了，

就换别人上。

月薪就像月经，

一个月不来就完蛋了！

And and I can't wait for Fri and Sat to come!

Dearest and sweeties meet-ups! =D

2008-08-12T16:57:00.006+08:00

I'm a slacker of a kid now.
I'm not working and relaxing at home. Haha..
Just nice cuz I get to catch Olympics everyday!
I think that Mr Michael Phelps is superbly amazing, its really crazy of him, can.
To be able to swim like what he did, lots of hardwork and lots of in-born gift.
In the just concluded team(male) Gymnastics, the movements were so slick in some.
So so nice, seriously, makes me feel like going back to all my training of flexibility and all.
And, the Japan team has some cute guys in them. =P
Esp, Kohei Uchimura. Heez..
There is another, but I didn't managed to catch his name.
And And I think in this Olympics, its going to be walk over for China again and USA is going be second.
Photos will come in due time.
Haha, cuz I keep forgetting to upload them. =P

A advert for this blog shop. Belongs to my sis's frenz. =)
http://accessories-andtees.blogspot.com/

What Lee Jie Ying Melissa Means

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

2008-08-11T00:24:00.005+08:00

I am feeling so unpatriotic this year.
To the max.
To the extend whereby I desparately want to go out and not even see or even know what's on for the parade.
But it was a major eating spree that day.
Had BK's uber filling enormous sandwich breakfast meal.
Jack's Place for dinner and kbox for the night with my sis.
Photos later (this afternoon).
Till then. (i need you)

I miss the good old days whereby we were carefree and without worries.
Problems were never to be to go unsolved.
Discussions sessions will be held to think through the problems and a solution will be formulated, irregardless of whether it will be carried out in the end.
But the point is, there is/are solution(s) to all the problems.
As we grow with age, stuffs gets more complicated.
Complex situations are met.
Problems more often than not get the answer of "there's nothing we can do" aka wu nai (quote from jerein).
I wish to be 14 again and stay there.
The laughter, the bond, the friendships, even the awkwardness, i miss(ing).
The special boy who share the same birthday as me, imagine meeting someone been born on the same year, same date with you at such a young age.
Boy oh boy, where are you now?
Secondary 2, 2002, how much I miss that year.
I want to be 14 again. (so that i wouldnt have to go thru all these right now)

Just one smile & hug from you will do the trick
*I just think I'm thinking far too much for my own good. Scenarios after scenarios, as if it would do me any good. Just let me meet you once more so that I know how you feel right now*

2008-08-06T01:00:00.007+08:00

A very Happy Happy BIRTHDAY to Kai Yan & Jingyi!!! =D
May the 2 of you stay happy always and all dreams and wishes would come true =)

Celebrated Kai Yan's birthday on sun.
Singing at TopOne KTV, it was relatively cheap. Song lists were pretty good(my frenz managed to find a singer who he didnt sae in anywhere else) , drinks were free-flow (though not all nice), heard from my frenz the food's bad (they had the bento which I didn't)

Kaiyan, me, Xuemei

I'm always the cake cutter (besides the birthday person).
WHile I'm cutting the cake and the birthday girl is hellping out, see what are the 2 guys doing. Tsk tsk. =P
Spot the blue guy aka Mr. Tan in the pics?
He's like in almost more than half of the pics taken. And he is so so striking in the blue
Dinner's at Fish & Co, nopez, no sabotaging of her. =)
We are nice people. =D

Caught the movie Money Not Enough 2 after that.
The show's worth 3.5 out of 5 popcorns.
Simple story plot which reflects realities of life with a very touching ending, I did shed quite a few drops of tears.

More movies coming our way, Journey to the Centre of the Earth and Love Guru are opening this week. =)
I'm seriously broke from movies. Sponsorship anyone? Haha.. =P

Met up with Jerein and Liyi on Mon (finally!!)
Miss them lots.
Catch up over a simple meal, so much have changed in our lives, but I'm glad nothing changed in the friendship of ours. =)

Friendships are really such treasures of lives and some dig and trudge through their entire lives hoping to meet someone who understands them.
I'm glad I have a few in my life up till now which makes me proud saying that I'm lucky to have met them and they have left such an impact on my life.
These 2 girls are ones among them.
Got me, us thinking and chatting on friendships.
I so truly want to hold on and want our friendship to go the distance, withstand the tests of time and distance between us.
Yet, this takes 2 hands to clap.
I have no idea if you still do read my blog, if you happen to chance upon this entry, I hope you do understand me well enough to know that I'm referring to you.
I think of the times when we were so close, quite inseparable and the best friends in others' eye.
But somehow, something changed in the middle of the journey.
What changed, how it changed, I have no idea and can't start to fathom what started to go wrong.
It's just like the circuit board just suddenly had wires being affixed wrongly, mechanism getting slighty screwed and the system starts going haywire.
I sincerely hope that you will appear on my birthday, though I have yet to sent out the invitation. =)
Just want you to know, you are still love.

The movie got me missing her. Aching for the comfort of her words and the food she cooked.
Wanting her to teach me how to cook the speciality dishes again, which I have yet to master and cooked for her.
If only time could turn back to the day of the fall, I swear that I will protect you using my life to prevent it from happening.
Then, you would still be my side right now, seeing me grow and be more sensible.
And having the means to be filial to you or at least be prepared and got the chance to say the last good night, good bye when you are still aware of it.
Time flies and 2 years have just passed by so quickly, without me realising that you had left for so long, as it seems just so recent.
I may not think of you often, I shouldn't be.
But I do know I'm missing you dearly in the special corner of my heart.
The longing to see you just once more and have the one last special hug.

At times like this, I wish that you were by my side.
Telling me that I will be fine and be better soon.
Teasing at the me who is down with the flu bug, that I should start exercising & run with you.
When I'm down, sad from the missing of her, you will provide warmth of a hug saying you are there for me to lean on.
Looking into my eyes with gentleness asking me to lie on your shoulder for it will be my support.
Wiping away tears when they fall, knowing the reason behind and asking me not to put on the brave front I have as I can be just me when I'm with you.
Telling me that you like the feeling of being with me.
Caressing my hair while holding me tight when I'm tired and looking for a place to rest.
I'm can't stop thinking of you, my dear. I have no idea why though.
Though it is lessening over time, I hope it does go down to nil soon.
Cuz as I had told you before, it is unhealthy to think and miss someone this much.
I should start applying advices which I give others.
I have no idea if I want to bump into you again.
Will I have the courage to do what I want & planned to do?
Disappoinments kill courage, and I think that is the last of the courage of mine which I have towards you, if I do ever see you again.

Sometimes, just sometimes, I wish that there is someone for me to depend on.
Though the weight on me has lessen, but still a girl is afterall still a girl, aren't she?
And I want a advisor of my own too and not just being an advisor to all around me.
Not that I'm complaining or dislike this position of mine, cuz it shows I'm being trusted. =)
But hey, it will still feel good having someone who understands me.
Can I have my prince in shining armor riding on a white white horse as a bday gift?
Haha, I'm sounding so much like a young girl.
Nah, (I'm) far too sensible, so I shall continue depending me, myself and I for now till........???

I'm being so emotional in this entry.
A girl's entitled to be emotional, aren't she? =P

2008-08-02T15:13:00.002+08:00

Something super random.
I suddenly remembered/realised that I have not uploaded the pics for my taiwan trip.
Haha.. And it has been almost 1 month. =D
Guess I will get down to the sorting and collaging of it later, while I still remember. =P
请容许我小小的骄傲因为有你这样的依靠

2008-08-01T12:31:00.005+08:00

I'm a very happy and lucky girl! =D
I got my super advanced birthday presents (like 2 months) from my parents.
But the presents are love, cuz they are what I wanted. =D

Daddy dearest got me this! <3
The perfume Incanto Heaven from Salvatore Ferragamo.
I'm so in love with the scent of it. =D

Mummy dearest got me this! <3
The Fion wallet which I have been eyeing for the longest possible time & in the colour which I wanted! =D
I finally have a new wallet!! Those who have been out shopping with me will know that I have been looking for one like since at least 1 yr ago. Haha..

I have actually been anticipating for another present, which I guess is not going to happen now. Oh wells.
Anyway, presents are gifts of thoughts, so rather than getting me expensive stuff, pls get me something I would like instead.
But somehow, stuff that I always like are expensive. Wahaha.. =P
Cuz I'm so in love with a bag, but it's something far too extravagant and something which I will never get for now or in the recent years.

Tada! The LV Neverfull bag in Damier Canvas! =D
Super pretty! It costs around $1100, but its only available in Japan.
So how to get my hands on it? Haha.

Caught the movie The Mummy: Tomb of the Dragon Emperor
Pretty good, 3.75 out of 5 popcorns (how do u divide a popcorn into 0.75? =P)
The effects were pretty awesome, so its a movie pretty worth catching. =)

Went for a meal at Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe.
Recently, I'm so into the food over there. Haha.
The food's nice! Having milk tea there is a given, so I shall touch on food.

Laopo's peanut toast. yummy!
Lots of peanut butter with condensed milk and its really thick.

Greedy me had a main course.
Mee Sua with curry chicken. It was surprisingly nice. =)
Never thought of having this combination before, and now it has turn into one of my fav combination for having curry chicken.
The curry is not bad, except that a little less oil and bigger pieces of potatoes would be better. =P
And I remembered to take photos of human (not just food) this time! =D

She's really absolute love, we had a very heartfelt talk ytd.
It feels really good being able to have someone who understands you and knowing that person will always be there for you irregardless of what happens.
For that, I'm really thankful to have met you and I hope it never ends. =)
We still have an obstacle to cross, don't we. =P

*my motivation is you, cuz i hate being look down upon, dislike being flawed and criticised*

2008-07-28T22:40:00.005+08:00

Recently, I have always been bringing my camera out, but I'm always taking pics of the food and not taking pics with the person I'm out with!
Forgetful me, will always chat & chat and totally forgot about taking photos. Haha.

Met up with Jingwen last week.
Haven seen her for a long while.
It feels great catching up with friends.
She actually called me while I was in Taiwan and asked if I was free, den I went "Eh, I'm in Taiwan now". Haha..
I never knew some of her thinking are quite similar as mine, guess people do change over time and environment plays a part in influencing us.

Made Sushi with my sis ytd.
First attempt!! =D
It is very much edible, ok, in case you guys are wondering, just that we should add more vinegar to the rice the next time round.
Haha, looks good ritez! =P
So so, who wants sushi? I make for you, at a nominal fee (cuz the ingredients are expensive) =P

Gave some to Kaishi to sample. (haha, white mice)
But she said that it's nice! (eh, better be the truth, haha)

You asked me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly than misled you with a lie
And who am I to judge you on what you say or do
I'm only just beginningto see the real you

And somtimes when we touch
The honesty is too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with pride
But through the insecurity some tendeness survives
I'm just another writer still trapped within my truth
A hesilant prize fighters still trapped with my youth

And somtimes when we touch
The honesty is too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through and hold you endlessly
At times I understand you and I know how hard you tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by
At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend a brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty is too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides
I will still so often than not, think of you when something happy happens, wanting to share the happiness with you. Great, what can I do to escape from all these thoughts?

2008-07-26T19:28:00.003+08:00

The Dark Knight was great!! (except for the ending which I thought was sort of crappy)

The action and story, it really didn't felt that long of a movie. =)

I'm giving it 4.25 popcorns out of 5! =P

Wedding Daze was funny.

3.5 popcorns out of 5.

It made me feel like looking across the restaurant and find the one. If only life really serves up such nice dishes.

Watched The X-Files ytd.
Omg! It's really such a chim movie!
So just 3 out of 5 popcorns, cuz honestly, the movie wasn't that great either.
The plot was there, but somehow I think that the intended effect wasn't delivered.

Think my recent life has been revolving around movies (major part), k-box-ing, meetup cum chat session.
I'm really enjoying it, the without pressure life, the I can do whatever I like life.
But I'm going quite broke from all the movies though. Haha. =P
More movies on the way!
And I think I have really officially found a new sweetie, we are so similar in so many ways, yet quite different at the same time.
I really treasure and appreciate the time that we spent together and I'm hoping it will last. =)

Thinking back, I realised that it was nothing of regret.
As I'm positive that I had made a right decision, did what was right.
Though that little msg still brought a smile to my face, it is no longer what it used to be.
Because what came along with it was confusion and uncertainty.
But I have already planned what to say next, if the time ever comes.
I must be the most damn straight forward girl ever. But that's me, my dear.

I really feel like going overseas. Alone. To Unwind. To Relax. To Shop. To Be Myself.

2008-07-23T00:03:00.003+08:00

I'm guessing...................
(I HATE guessing games)
And I'm sick & tired of all these. (i just want the single one to come)

2008-07-20T20:49:00.003+08:00

Have caught the movies: 10 Promises to My Dog, It's a Girl Boy Thing, Hancock in this week.
10 Promises to My Dog was touching, and yes, the dog did died in the end.
It's a Girl Boy Thing was ultra funny. It's NC16, so there are quite a few scenes that could be quite naked, literally.
Hancock was good. =) It was quite a unexpected twist towards the ending.
Actually I have watched quite a few movies ever since June, but hasn't been blogging about them. Haha.. =P
Will be going for The Dark Knight and Wedding Daze tml. =D

Went to the library book fair at expo today.
The books were damn cheap.
It was like $2/book and I'm thinking that it could probably because of the fact that the fair is ending and they wanna clear stocks, the books ended up 2 for the price of 1.
This effectively brings the price of the books to $1 each.
But I can't possibly bring so much home and I won't be keeping these books and so decided not to get too much.
Got only 12 (6 english, 6 chinese) in the end.
I have so many books on hand to read now.
Cuz I had went to the Times book fair in June too (bought 7 books) and I wasn't exactly that free, so till now I only completed one and just started on the second book.
Plus, I had bought some chinese books from Taiwan and they are still lying there for me to read too. =P

I guess I should thank you for helping me making the decision. =)
And apologies for being the wilful girl that I was.
If it was meant to be, it will always be in the end, that is what I always believe in.
I have let it go and I believe you had too.
Though the thinking is quite never ending, but I believe it will all get better. =)
Still, I miss the comfort of your hugs and the daily msges.

2008-07-17T23:33:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling regretful and guilty.
Oh gosh, this sounds like a confession.
But oh well, I did what I did and regrets are for myself too.
Sometimes a girl, can't be too overboard, can she?
Guess, it's really high time for me to change my ways.
Some words and actions were unecessary on my side, but it was those at the moment reactions, though I was mulling over it and thinking of to or not.
Decided not to, and this is the result, guess its better go with instincts, huh.
Whatever.
The question you have always been asking, but the answer I have always not been giving.
The reason is simply, I just can't say it out loud.
But I do feel the way you feel, my dear. i miss you,lots

2008-07-17T01:00:00.002+08:00

Sometimes an apology would suffice, but you didn't even bother to say a simple "sorry".
It was as though it wasn't a big deal.
You could even say, that's what you have been angry about and you didn't even gave me an explanation till I asked.
You are making this all so difficult.
And I'm feeling real gulity.

2008-07-12T22:23:00.005+08:00

I have decided that the uploading and collaging of fathers' day pics is far less tedious then the Taiwan's trip, so here they are! =D

Haha, actually its pretty obvious I'm dragging my feet to upload the Taiwan pics. =P

Some fair which was ongoing during our visit to Singapore Flyer.

All seen below are either real live or real specimens.

I wanna go for another Singapore Flyer trip, at night though.

I believe the night scenery is going to be nicer than daytime. =)

Mummy and Daddy dearest

My sis with dumb poses ( requested by yours truly, haha)

A girl can be zi-lian, ritez =P

Dinner at Ah Yat Abalone (the lighting wasnt good for taking pics =X)

The family =)

I find myself looking foward to a phone call from you and the date which you mentioned =)

2008-07-11T21:35:00.008+08:00

I'm back from Taiwan!! =D
And I'm totally in love with the shopping and the food there.
It's cheap and good. =D
The moment I reached home and unpack the suitcase, I felt a sense of nostalgia and felt like flying back to do more shopping!!
Haha, okie, I'm quite a shopping queen, ya.
This is going to be a post on the shopping over there, the sightseeing pics are too much and I'm feeling way to lazy to do the collage, so its going to take some time. =P
Meanwhile, let the pics do the "shopping talk". =)

Clothes

Caps
The caps there are so nice and unlike what can be seen in Singapore.
I so wanna buy lots of them back, but oh well, I don't really get to wear them in Singapore.

Bags
I was actually expecting to get quite a few bags back, but to my disappointment, I didn't managed to find any that I really fancy or caught my eye.
These 2 bags are actually the super last min shoppping done while waiting for the airport transfer to come.

Comics/Books
The comics are so cheap over there!! =D
Peiwen and I had initally wanted to grab lots of it back (esp Peiwen, she's a much more comic fanatic then me), but financial, space constraints stopped us from doing that crazy movement.
The comic store is located at GuangHua Guan Chang, its actually a place which sells all the IT stuff (like Sim Lim), the CPU casings are so damn pretty, but quite impossible for us to take back.
Haha.

Necklaces

Shoes
Seriously, there are so so so many which I wanted to buy back.
The heels there are absolute love.
Besides being pretty, I love the colours and the height too..
The heels there are generally tall there.
But something quite sad is that the silver and purple heels which I had in mind I didnt buy, cuz don't have my size. =(
I so wanna make a pure shopping trip back there soon.

Misc stuff
I bought nail polish from The Face Shop there, cuz it was cheaper and on top of it, they were having a promotion. =)

Food
Not all the food I bought back have pics (too lazy, haha)

Gifts
I have started meeting up with friends to pass them their gifts and share the experience, it's starting to get a tad to tiring though.
I keep repeating myself, but still I will be more than happy to share. =)
Cuz all of them are from different groups, so there's no way I can do a combined meet-up.

If this skirt seems familiar, trust your eyes, it is.
I bought a blue one for myself and this yellow one for laopo.
And after she reads this entry, she will know what is one of the gift which she will be recieving.
Haha.

I wonder if it was the start of anything, we were so close, yet at the same time, I don't feel a thing. That's bad, isn't it? Seriously, I have no idea what I was doing and thinking last night, suddenly it felt so much like a distant memory. I'm seriously screwing up my personal life. Oh god, give me a sign will you? Words said and actions done may actually portray more than what you really feel. I hate the feeling of being mislead.

2008-06-29T22:27:00.002+08:00

Okie, actually I have been meaning to post up the pics for the celebration on fathers' day (which was 2 weeks ago!)
But, I have been very very lazy and working, till I finally open blogger now and look thru the folder of pics.
I then decided not to post them (cuz too many), I'm feeling really lazy! =P
But briefly, we went on Singapore Flyer.
I can only say that the ride is so overrated!
The flyer's totally not high at all, which means you don't really get much of a view.
I went at near 5pm, and after the ride I sincerely think that the ride would be much taken at night, which all the lightings and all.
We went Ah Yat Abalone for our dinner.
We had the course for 6 people and we managed to finish it all!
I think the staff were amazed. Haha.

Random
1) I have seen a crazy japanese guy, talking very loudly to himself
2) I always take on jobs which require to do nothing much but recieve pay =)
3) I think I can go broke from buying books
4) You make me blush and start behaving like a kid in front of you
5) My sis and I suddenly talking very much to each other (this is progress *relieved*)
6) I totally fell in love with my new makeup remover
7) I think I will shop like mad in Taiwan
8) I predict the amount I would be spending on gifts would be quite a lot
9) I love all my recent paychecks
10) I have no idea what to make of you
11) I have not packed my luggage yet (and it's near 11pm now, I have to reach the airport by 11am tml)
12) I have for the first time read finish a complete set of Straits Times (the entire set including every single article and the classified)
13) The product Berocca really works
14) When someone asked me why am I ignoring him, I'm so tempted to answer "cuz you have not done anything worthy to command my attention"
15) I have seen lots of different types of LV bags for the past few days
16) I'm lusting over LV's Neverfull in Damier (which is only exclusively avaliable in Japan)
17) The bankrupcy figures are outrageous, people at 25, 26 are being annouched as bankrupts
18) I saw quite a few famous characters during work
19) I saw my ex-tutors, Chee Ming Loo & Cheong Ying Ying
20) I saw working ladies chasing after the show mo fan ban bang tang and started asking each other who was more shuai
21) I didn't managed to get my mp4
22) Somehow, I started to look forward to what you had said

Lastly, I can't wait to go TAIWAN!!!

2008-06-11T23:39:00.011+08:00

This will be the entry for the Bintan trip!
Warning: Pictures overload coming up

The Beach
The beach is ultra beautiful!
The pictures really don't do much justice to them.
It's a pity that we didnt get to do much water sports due to the weather (it kept raining).
The waters are very very clear, esp when we when kayaking, we could see the different shades of colours of the sea as we went to different areas of the sea.
Speaking of Kayaking, I think my friends and I kinda went mad, recalling, I think we kayak around 10km (to & fro).
To be honest, on the return trip, I was so freaking tired, but I wanna make it back to shore!
Haha.. =P But it was real fun and get to see nice rocks (literally, real rocks).
They are beautiful, very different normal ones we get to see, we even saw a cave, but we cant possibly get down to explore it.
The sense of accomplishment when arrive back on shore and see how far we had kayaked.
Woohoo!!!!! =D

We played Banana Boat too!!
Damn fun!
We split into 2 groups for it.
The driver purposely capsized my group, but its like the freaking nice part! (I think he was too lazy to take us out very far, cuz we are the last team, so he juz capsized us, he didn't for the previous team)
Before he started the ride, he was still like "balance yourself, try not to fall off, cuz there are jellyfish out there".
And he tried to capsized us multiple times! But only succeeded once! =D

Nirwana Gardens Resort
Too much pics le, so decided not to upload the lobby and etc.
The following are how the exterior of the resorts look like.
The very wonderful swimming pool and jacuzzi.

For the days there, it kept raining, we ended up mahjong-ing in the resort room half the time.
Thr first day I played all the way from around 10pm to 5am.
Pure madness! And I lost near $17 on the first night. (our base is $20)
My friend won all of us, he won $60+ (cuz I have a friend who lost more than $20)
It was scary and stress can (cuz im not very good in the game, but through this trip, i learnt many! hopefully i won't forget. haha..), my hands were like either I won big or lost big, my friend's luck was like ultra good.
There was one game which had juz started and i threw a tile and my friend won and i ended up paying $6.40. Another round was like I paid for all the other players ($12+).

The second day, the afternoon was raining too, so another girl-friend and i played with another 2 friends, while the 2 guys who played with us on the previous nights slept. We like gambling addicts sia.
But we didnt play with money for this, juz friendly match.
That night, my girl-friend and I played with the 2 guys again!
Yupz, with money again.
I ended up winning and recoup my losses for the night before, with the result of me winning $3+ in total after all the games.
Playing with them is really stress but tons of fun too, cuz get to learn.
Even my friend (the guy with ultra good luck, he's like the shifu there, super power!) said I improved!
Happy! Juz hope that I really won't forget what he had taught and said. Haha.. =P

Food

Breakfast are all in the resort in a place called "Coffee Shop". No pictures though, we didnt bring our cameras down for breakfast.

The first meal we had over at Bintan.

It's a place within our resort called "Poolside Restaurant"

Dinner for the first night was at Pasar Oleh Oleh.
We had our dinner at a place called "Cafe Helo Helo"
The tom yam soup is like very sour, but its liek those lime jucie type of taste of sour, all of us barely drank a bowl.
We also bought our first souvenirs here.
We girls went gaga and bought a sea turtle soft toy each.
It's really sute! But also expensive. No worries, we all spend like we are rich people over there. (you guys will see why later)
Note: Souvenirs pics wun be seen in the entry.
Also, all the shops look similar over there.
Each shop will have a different display colour theme, but the clothes on display are all similiar.

This is our dinner for the second night.
What we had for this meal usually will not be taken with friends. It usually only appears on banquets and wedding dinners.
Haha, need not imagine and see what are they below! =P
They are all ultra fresh and yummy-licious.
The picture of the dish "chicken" and all our drinks pictures are not in.

Shark Fin

Noodles

Scallops

Black Pepper Crab

Groupa (izzit spelled this way?) aka Fish

Prawns

Fresh Fruits Platter

Our last meal over at Bintan before we leave.
It's taken at a place call "Spice Restaurant".

People
These are the group of freinds which I went Bintan with!
Known them from secondary school till now! =)

From left clockwise: Wei Ming (Xm's bf), Xue Mei, Sheng Long, Wei Xiang, Kai Yan, Melissa

2008-05-24T22:47:00.006+08:00

Yesterday was Graduation Day!
This significantly represents the ending point of my journey in Nanyang Polytechnic (NYP).
Throughout these 3 years, there were tears, fun & laughter, hardship, crazy deadlines and seemingly never-ending projects and icas.
But I, together with all my friends have strive on and accomplished all of them. =D
I would like to give a very very big thanks to all those who have helped me along the way, esp my project team mates, whom I believe some were driven crazy by me.
Esp my group mates in year 3, I truly think we are a miracle team, always finishing and producing results which none of us would have expected when we were starting off.
A very very big hug and thanks to all of you.
Esp esp Joyce, who have been doing projects with me (almost all, except for a few) throughout these 3 years, think my "perfectionist character" makes her wanna kill me sometimes. =P
When looking at the mulitmedia presentation yesterday, waves of undescribable came through me.
From year 1, which feels like eons ago to year 3 (which have just ended a few months ago), all of the memories seems so far and reminds me that time really flies.
But I do know that someday, when I look back, all these fond memories and feelings which comes along will feel like it just happened yesterday and those days never seems too far away.
Life is going continue and we will take on our each individual paths (knowing that all our interests lie in different areas), I really do hope that we will still keep in contact and never forget each other.
I'm really glad that you guys have entered my life, it makes a whole lot of difference. =D

My year 1 classmates =)
From left: Ren Xin (he graduated with diploma with merit!), Jerein, Me, Joyce, Shawn
Top Picture: Me, Liyi, Jerein
Jerein and Liyi darlings, remember to keep in contact and meet up!

My miracle team!! =D
Hearts them lots and lots (even though we have bitched and catfight with each other like nobody's business)
From left: Peiwen, Joyce, Me, Rain, Huiyu

I must say, I didn't take with lots of people.
Amidst the finding of people, it totally slipped my mind to take photos with the lecturers. =X

After photo-taking sessions in school, went home, got changed and went for celebration dinner with my parents at Jacks Place! =D

Mummy dearest! <3

Daddy dearest! <3 color="#000000">

My shitake mushroom soup (yummy!)

My fillet tenderloin and chicken combo (w black pepper sauce)

Mummy's fillet tenderloin and chicken combo ( w mushroom sauce)

Daddy's tenderloin

It was so funny, all 3 of us had steak, but all at different "cook levels".
Mine was medium, daddy's medium-well, mummy's well done.

Desserts!

Mummy's mango moose cake

Daddy's american cheese cake

My brownie with ice-cream

After this yummy-licious, super filling dinner, I was supposed to go and meet Jerein at pub, after which to meet Huiyu, Peiwen and Yee Yong at cine kbox.
However, due to some situations, I didn't turn up for the kbox, so sorry guys!
Went Amber 21 to find Jerein (her whole family was there), it was supposed to be celebration ar, but it feels like a normal pub-outing day.
Haha, but it was very fun last night. =D
Yes, I went drinking again and I think I did drank quite abit last night. =X
The result was being super tired -> overslept -> late for work -> cab. Haha.
But still, I wanna go pubs and drink, for the fun, for the laughter, most definitely not the alcohol.
Okie, maybe because of the people also. =)

On the last note, it turns out that I'm still very much going to Taiwan. Haha.
And I have been spending quite abit these days, gotta get funding from my mobile atm (aka mummy dearest). Haha. =P

I sincerely hope that I will be able to find you soon. *prays & hope*
I'm getting tired and losing myself. I know I am, gradually.
Strating to lose sense of direction and not knowing where to head anymore.
I need someone to guide me, hold my hands and bring me along, travel forward.
So pretty pretty please, can i can have the him appearing in my life soon. Thanks.
I don't want to be alone anymore, the feeling kinda sucks.

2008-05-20T23:12:00.003+08:00

Shopping & Satisfaction *edited*

Excuses:
1) I have not been doing real shopping for a long while.
2) It's time to reward myself for the hard work I have put in for the past few months.
3) ~~I have decided to postpone the Taiwan shopping trip meant to be in July to end of the year.~~
4) I'm going to Bintan in June! Need to buy "necessary" items.

Reason:
I blew near (very very near) $200 on shopping today. =D
Pure indulgence!
To top it off, just last sun (2 days before), I have spent almost $70.
But I'm so loving all the stuff I bought. Absolute love!
And and I don't think I'm done with shopping either. Haha.
I'm giving myself perfect excuses to shop. =P
Gotta drag mummy dearest along the next time.
Hurhur...! =D

I love my mummy dearest!! =D
And, nopez, not because she went shopping with me (btw, it still haven happened).
Tml is grad day and good thing for her, cuz she reminded me of all teh things which I have forgotten about.
Like, ironing the robe! Haha. =D
In the end, she ironed it for me (I helped a little =P)
I'm so glad for it, the robe is so heavy, and I'm totally not cut out for ironing. =)
Okie, among all the other things, the main bottomline is I LOVE my Mummy!

2008-05-19T20:36:00.004+08:00

Here's the official entry on my last day in Mount Faber Leisure Group (MFLG) or better known as The Jewel Box.
I have just spent almost 2hrs sending out all the photos which I have took on my last days to my colleagues.
After which, I spent another 2hrs making collages of the photos of that day.
And I'm still not done.
Tsk tsk, this teaches a lesson of never to put off everything to a same time period, thinking that it is the same task and it can be completed quickly.
So NOT true!
Let pictures do the talking for now, I'm lazy and tired.

From top left hand corner: Joanna! (I think she's the best thing that came out of my school attachment!), the team, Clare (ceo's sercetary)
Last row: IT

First 2 rows: Faber Tours
Last Row: Events

Finance & Retail (last 2 photos)

First 2 photos: HR
3rd: Receptionist
2nd row: Guest Relations (there are lots more GR personnel, but I have never ever chatted with them before. I never got to take with Daniel, who went Thailand)
3rd row: First 2 - Operations, last - cleaner auntie, who is ultra cute & nice

This is the legendary iconic toilet!
It’s freaking beautiful! Really really nice!
It’s the best camwhoring toilet I have ever seen.
Haha, seriously if I went in with a bunch of my friends, half an hour in there purely for the sake of photo taking is not a problem.(when you are taking photos, time passes very fast!)
My photo taking skills are so-not-up-to-standard to capture the beauty of it.
You guys should go and see it for yourself.
Okie, this is actually a hint for you ppl to go for drinks with me at the bars there.
Though the pricings are on the high side (I’m not kidding about it!), it is really the ambience that counts and once in a long while won’t really hurt, right? =P

Last 2 photos are the singapore flyer tickets (4tics for my whole family) which Joanna gave me as farewell gift!
Hearts her lots man. =D
That's all for now.
As for other photos, oh wells, time oh time. Haha =P

2008-05-13T11:10:00.004+08:00

I had wanted to make this entry a pictures filled one, but due to my laziness (yet again) and the place I am in (my office), I am unable to do so.
But one will be up soon =)
Too much pictures collecting dust in the camera, handphone, laptop and not seeing the day of light =P

= 8 May =
Had dinner at Pastamania. (been too lazy these days to take photos of food which are being consumed)
Caught Speed Racer with Laopo.
Seriously, I have no idea Rain was in this movie till I was on the way to catch it and saw the poster.
I knew he is in some Hollywood movie, but well, just no idea which.
And if Laopo didn't suggest watching this, I would never have caught a great movie!
Intially I thought the animation, effects and stuff looks ultra fake.
Believe me, I really thought that it's going to be a omg-type of movie, which all the colourful and blinding affects.
But but, as I watched on, seriously, it were those effects that got to me, it was so nice that that I completely forgot about teh fact that I found them too fake.
I was far too engrossed into the engaging movie.
Plus, the movie is a whooping 135mins!
Wonderful!! =D
I had thought that the show was going to end after a major competition, but there was an even bigger competition after that.
Definitely worth every cent paid.
Okie, I'm raving about the movie (don't blame me if the movie is not up to your liking, everyone interests differs =P)
It gets my rating of 4 out of 5 popcorns =D

Emile Hirsch as Speed (the main main character, the drving skills he has in the show is amazing)

Christina Ricci as Trixie (doesn't she looks absolutely doll-like? gosh, I love her eyes!)

Rain as Taejo (he doesn't has much air time in the movie, but still he's cute in some scenes )

Matthew Fox as Racer X (I guess correctly to what happened to this character, I should get back to my old job of writing =P)

= 9 May =
Celebrated Jingyi's birthday. Her birthday is on 10 May.
Had our dinner at Billy Bombers (not going to go into the details of how frustrating it was to find a dining place - yet again)
I don't have much of the pics of that day (was too busy cam-whoring with my dear ex-laopo whom I have not seen in ages), will get the photos from others =P
Went Eski Bar for drinks after that.
Initially they didnt had seats for us inside the bar itself, hence we were seated at the freezing entrance of the pub.
It was at the freaking temperature of -3 degrees.
It's really the first time that I had went drinking with 1) such a large group 2) with all of them =D
Pretty fun, I must say.
People, we shall do this more often, ya. (ok, the alcoholic me is acting up again)
It was such a coincidence that there were 2 more people celebrating their birthday over there too.
Imagine, at such a small place, but having 3 groups of people celebrating their birthday.
We requested the staff to sing abirthday song for Jingyi after we saw them doing it for another group.
Haha =D and the "cake" that we got was the same too.
In the end, Jingyi went to took a photo with that lady (who is celebrating her 19 birthday)
Now now, doesn't 19 seems so young?
Youth seems to elude us much faster than we think it should be. Tsk tsk.

I hope to update a truckload of photos the next time I update. *crosses fingers*

The following is on this guy in my office. The feelings just sucks, literally.
I'm SO SO glad that I won't have to see him for much longer.
p.s: I think he speaks in a eunuch-like voice (digusting!!!)
Displeasure is a not strong enough word when I see you.
Irritation is not even close to the best fit description when I hear you.
Distant is just a mere fraction of how far away I want to be away from you.

* I don't even know who you are anymore. I see you everyday but yet it feels like you are quite the complete stranger who is just living under the same roof with me. I want to understand you, but somehow I can't seem to enter your world, a place where I used to be so familiar with. Is the only way and thing that we can chat about are your games? Must I really put in that amount fo great effort to master the game in oreder to be able to communicate with you? Time, efort and patience are the key, I know, yet how much of those do I really have and is able to dedicate to this matter? Time-management? Or maybe, i'm just not willing to try and deldue myself because of the hurt that it might bring. Bring you down I may, if things that are being done to rectify the current situation, I will not hestitate to do so and hate me for all I care*

2008-05-05T14:46:00.004+08:00

I have such a strange fate with the name "Jason".
Till date, I have known 7 of them.
And I think all of them have different surnames.
All of them has crossed my life in one way or another, no matter how short the span of time and irregardless of how I knew them.
And somehow, when I know them, it's like within a very short span of time I will get to know afew.
Hmmm... Just strange.
Anyway, 1 of them I had actually known through drinking.
Yes yes, I'm very unhealthy and bad, I seems to have fallen back into my drinking life.
Super unhealthy.
He is actually my friend's brother's friend.
Haha, complicated?
He's a nice guy but all I know about him is his name and roughly what he does, best part is he has already sent me home twice.
Actually I feel kinda bad.
On the first account, I had wanted to cab home, but my friend insisted that he sent me home.
The second time was last sat, just after a while being there and I drank quite a bit (cuz I kept losing in 5-10 to my friend's brother), then he was like nvm, go ahead and drink since I will be sending you home later and I know where you stay. -_-""
For that account, I went drinking with my sec school friends on sat and brought them to that pub.
It was a last min trip actually, since I can get a better price there, why not?
I had a friend among that group which I percieved to be a good drinker (he ask me to drink fountain with him that day and I went you are mad, and I don't want to drink), he always drink this type of shots and strong stuff.
And and, he got drunk that day!!
Oh gosh! I really didn't expect to happen, ended up taking care of him and wait for him to get better before we can leave.
The point is, I kinda feel guilty towards Jason as I requested him to sent my friend home.
Like also not close with him then still request and he did it obligingly.
In case you people are wondering, nopez I'm not close with this Jason at all, to the extend whereby we don't even have each other's number (I can't even drop him a thank you msg =X)
Oh wells, still very thankful for his action (cuz it was already around 4am when we left) and yes, I'm still quite paiseh for the request. =X
I should stop drinking so much!
Feels like a alcoholic.
*ps: I had originally wanted to blog about this last night and I had already thought of what to write and say very nicely inaddition to other stuff, but I was too lazy & tired to do so, brian working, hands refuse to work. hence this very crappy and random entry w/o alot of nice details and other stuff*

2008-04-30T09:17:00.002+08:00

I know I have been missing for a long time, but it doesn't really matters, does it?
Caught the movie Definitely, Maybe with Laopo like 2 weeks ago.
Nice show, giving it 3.5 popcorns.
It's surprisingly miuch nicer then what I was expecting, so anyone who still have yet to watch it, should try it.

~*~

On another note, think I'm leaving my office real soon.

I dislike this place, the working environment, the people.

Certain people I must say are so freaking irritating and fucking pissing me off.

Can't they just mind their own pretty business and buzz off mine?!!

And the office is renovating, thus we will have to pack all our stuff and shift.

It's like fucking troublesome and waste of my time, cuz I won't even be at the temp office for long (only for a week) and I have to go through the whole tsupid, dumb and tiring process.

Fyi, there will be NO professional movers, we will have to move all the carton boxes ourselves.

Which is so freaking dumb, they buy such big boxes and ask us to maximise space, then they complain the boxes are heavy.

Are they freaking brainless?!!

I did so much packing and I doubt anyone can understand how much effort and time is put into it, cuz if you don't see the before and after, you will never know.

I writing all these down now is cuz I could really care less about them discovering and reading my blog and all that I have written.

They could just fire me, which I will be so gladly to leave.

Appreciation people!!

*fucking people doing fucking actions saying fucking stuff. seriously, fuck off bitches*

2008-04-12T23:26:00.002+08:00

I wanna go overseas with friends!
I wanna go shopping overseas!
Think I have my mind and heart too set in going overseas to shop, so now in S'pore I don't really have the mood to shop.
Is that good or bad? =D
Oh wells, hope that I Really Really can go overseas with my friends, which I have been mentioning for such a long long time =X

2008-04-09T22:04:00.002+08:00

I'm a emo-ing, mixed feelings kid now.
Sometimes I so love my life.
I'm well on the way to what I define as perfect life.
The life I have now, I will grade it 7/10.
Cuz my determination for some stuff is not there yet, I haven got the wonderful person beside me and there's always room for improvement =)
It will be nice to achieve the 9/10 in my heart (1 mark is for improvement)
I have a laopo who loves me as much as I love her.
Friends (though not alot), but I know there are around me and I can count on them if anything happens.
Ex-gfs who I still think that they are my gfs (we "broke up" cuz too long nv contact).
One is on the way of gaining back (hear that xm?!) and the other one is far too busy (me & her) for us to patch back (joyceeeeee! On leave! my dear =P)
And there will always be random ppl here and there.
Being the workaholic I am, I'm quite happy with all the jobs and money which are coming in (though it could be higher, I'm not going to complain =D)
Reading being my love, I'm getting more of it (in fact, though not enough time, but I at least have some time for it)
Trips which I think could well be on the way of fulfilling

And sometimes I hate my life.
I don't get to have the fun/partying/high life that I want
Being the active me, my life is a tad too boring for me.
I wanna do crazy and wild stuff, but I have no one who can accompany me to do so.
I'm getting fat like nobody's business (well, it is nobody's business & don't say I'm not, I know myself better than you do)
My face is nowhere near the recovering/getting better condition.
Time and money always seems not enough.
The close-knit relationship between my sis and I is gone.
Heck, we don't even really talk these days (read: talk = exchanging words & statements), needless to say about communicating
I don't understand what's going on in her life (which seems to me, there's ALOT going on)
Friends who I used to be close to, and I wanna re-connect I can't seem to do so.
I think I'm a lousy communicator, can hold a decent conversation with ppl beside those that I often chat with.
And my nose is currently operating like a running tap.

*Actually half way through why I like my life, I have already forgotten what I had intially wanted to write for this entry. So don't mind me, I'm just a confused and (I think) in need of sleep kid*

p.s: I can't wait to do crazy shopping in Taiwan (I hope I'm really going)
p.p.s: I pray & hope for positive results for my uni entry
p.p.p.s: I have already plan quite ahead with what I want to do with my life
p.p.p.p.s: I have recently fall in love with writing p.s-es
p.p.p.p.p.s: End of my p.s-es, are you guys still reading?? =P

2008-04-07T23:15:00.002+08:00

Went with laopo for our weekly meet-up just now =)
*though we missed it last week =X*
Caught The Bucket List
Very inspiring movie, very nice!!
Recommended! =D
Giving it 4 out of 5 popcorns ( cuz there's always room for improvement =P)

After watching it, I'm so treasuring lfe and friends more than before.
I should start re-connecting with those that I have lost touch and those that we have drifted away apart. =)
But there will always be one or a few in your life that whom you hold closest to, call them dearest and know that they will treat you the best and vice versa.
So so, I'm presenting my dearest Laopo!! =D
Laopo aka Kaishi aka Crystal *muacks*

I won't say I can't live without her, but I can't imagine life without her.
Without the weekly meet-ups, without the person to gossip like nobody's business with me, without someone who I can chat with at so much ease, without needing to concealing any part of my feelings. Someone who I can do funny and weird stuff with.
And someone who is so ever-accomodating to my bad temper.
She calls herself my genie, as my wish is her command =P

Most importantly, someone who understands me and I know she's there whenever I need someone =D

I have no idea how it started, but we just got closer and closer after poly life started.

It's so amazing how we 2 got so much closer after we grad from sec, and in sec school we don't even really talk.

Whatever it is, she's LOVE.

I love her tons and tons =D

2008-04-07T16:23:00.004+08:00

Hi people!
Not too sure if you guys know, but I'm currently working at Mount Faber Leisure Group, The Jewel Box.
And and we will be holding a Wedding Show event! =D
If you know any friends, relatives or anybody who are getting married, do recommend them to to this wedding show =)

The event will be held on 19th April 2008 (Saturday) and 20th April 2008 (Sunday).
Unlike other wedding shows, the prospects can enjoy a 5-course sit-down dinner with a choice of Western or Chinese Menu at the price of only $68 nett per couple. A fashion show will also be held together with lucky draws with attractive prizes to be won.
Also, this Wedding Show is limited to only 40 couples per day.
So so, interested parties, please feel free to contact our Events team at 6377 9632 for enquiries or registration.

Alternatively, can ask them to visit the following website for more details!
http://www.singaporesights.com/events/events-in-2008/dream-wedding-the-jewel-box

Help me promote ok?
Love you guys! =D

2008-04-02T11:58:00.003+08:00

Bliss is when the person is together with you.
Blessed is when you know you have the person by your side.
I want to feel both ways.
Dearest.

2008-04-02T10:42:00.004+08:00

I'm in a:
I-don't-feel-like-doing-anything
cum
I-have-lots-to-do
cum
I-have-no-idea-what-am-I-doing
cum
ultra-lazy
mood.

I am in such a random and weird feeling mood, on top of "oops, I'm doing illegal stuff aka blogging in the office"

I really have lots of photos, which I'm far too lazy to upload, and by means of lazy to upload, I mean into my laptop.
Haha..
Also, I'm feeling I'm healthier these days (cuz I have been exercising) but eating far too much (cuz working in a office with eating being the only thing that can be done simultaneously).
Okie, I shall stop writing about all these weird + funny + random moods. (cuz actually I'm feeling much more than all of teh stated above. Wahaha.. =P)
And I can't wait for May to arrive! Hope everything goes well! =D

2008-03-26T00:41:00.003+08:00

My new found love!! Though I think it is going to be for a short time basis only =P
But he's too adorable and shuai to resist!! =D

Miura Haruma

Laopo these are for you =)

Those who have watched the show or at least saw the poster will know who he really is =)

~ Such a random random post ~

2008-03-24T21:02:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHARLENE..........!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!
I'm not going to say 1 year older so must be more mature, because I know you will be, so I won't add on to the stress.
But I'm wishing you with all my heart that lady luck will find and follow you always.
Happiness and smiles will befall you every single day.
And Mr. Right will appear someday soon. =D
Miss you lots my dear girl, i want kbox too!!

Pls stop reminding Miss Melissa that she is very busy.
Because she knows!!
But all things have the piorities ranking and she has to settle her piorities first.
So very unfortunately, her piorities take up more than half of her time.
And the second piorities are going out with my lovelies (which I so do not have time for them. Feeling so apologetic and guilty towards them)
And being so very busy, she has to get sufficient sleep which going by her rules is 5 to 6 hrs, which are not too very much, are they?
She's trying her best to be a good pizza with slices evenly sliced and shared.

I have so many pics that I'm too lazy to explain and collage.
But the above is some (a few) pics of the scenery of the cable car and at mount faber.
PS: I have so many other photos on so many other events and days but I really can't be botehred to collage them. The best part is that some pics are specially taken at that point of time with the thought to put on blog. Ironic isn't it?

Even though she may too busy to contact or meet up with her lovelies, but they are never forgotten, so don't forget her too!!! =D
Here are some pics to remind you of her!! =P

Lastly, Miss Melissa is going Tioman with her friends!!
Woohoo...!!!! Sooooo happily happy!!
I'm so surprised that my daddy agreed the moment I asked =D
*It is always the closest person who will betray you as they understand you the most.
I'm sorry I have to be that person to betray your trust and do things you really dislike and I do go the extreme way as u require extreme measures.
Choices have to be made and this is mine. Im doing this cuz I love you my beloved __
Don't blame me, though I know you will, you will probably hate me for life*

2008-03-19T00:34:00.003+08:00

I have no idea should I be happy or sad.
But I'm definitely glad. =)
I'm a straight B/B+ student for the whole of year 3.

I have regained usage of my camera phone and the pics are already uploaded into the com, but I'm kinda lazy to upload onto blog and collage them.
Later people. =)

2008-03-15T16:35:00.003+08:00

Caught the movie Sky of Love with laopo ytd.
Typical storyline line, typical actions and love story, but it still earned out tears.
Cuz all these storylines are forever touching.
Seriously everyone in the cinema at least shed a few tears, including the guys.
You could hear the sniffles here and there, and a girl/lady even cried out loud (its really pretty loud) haha..
The guy is like so damn shuai when you first saw him.
He's so so suitable for blond/white hair. He looks much better in this hair colour as compared to black.
Awww.. Nice looking guy who died in the show.
Typical Japanese heart wrenching story.
A spoiler: The girl miscarriage in the show. Which makes the whole story even more saddening and is quite a main pint of the story.

http://yutakis.wordpress.com/2008/01/25/transformer/
Take a look at this!
Laopo, this is the girl I was talking about. =)
~*~
On another note......
Miss Melissa is going to so busy working till she thinks that she wun really have time to go out.
Cuz I have juz found myself a weekend job! =)
I think I'm going to love the job and money sounds pretty good too. =)
Haha..
But at least I can save more money this way. =)
I so wanna go Taiwan and shop like mad. =P
And I do think I'm quite the fashion person, I always think of the mix and match attires and when I watched those Taiwanese Variety show, it would be similar.
Plus, my latest fav mix and match/attire colour is grey.
And tada!! Gray is the colour of the year, or at least for these beginning months.
Girls, bring me shopping! I coordinate attire for you! =P
Okie, I'm quite shamless. Wahaha....!
Or anyone can recommend me any fashion related job, like stylist and stuff.
Haha.. Okie, I have too much job offers on hand. I should stop looking for jobs.
Taiwan, Taiwan!!! Here I come!! (And I'm thinking which group people to ask along)

Oh yes! And results are about to be out, praying that I have done well for this last and final semester! =D

2008-03-14T00:20:00.004+08:00

Found this pretty cutez. =)

Let's talk about my packed life after exams.
But first, I want to complain once again, I'm so frustrated that I can't take pics.
Bah.

~*~
Previous week

The last paper ended on Tues.
Wednesday was the truly only full day that I was at home.
I did went to the library alone though, does this counts as going out? =P
Thurs, Fri, Sat was work for my part time company.
I seriously love the job. =) And I think all my frenz who I recommended there love it too. =)
After work on sat, went to escape with Peiwen and Geraldine. (actually I don't remember if I had already blogged on this heez..)
The 2 kind girls waited for me to ended work and at met at 3pm so that we could enjoy the rides together.
So sweet of them. =D
It was fun! Love the rides and the people who I went with. (When I am typing this, I got a stronger feeling that I had already blogged about this event. But by the time this sentence is over the strong feeling pushed me to the other end saying that I have not blogged about it and what I recalled is cuz I had told others about it. Oh wells... Shall stop heer anyway =P)
Sun was a slacking day with lots of hiccups on whether to go out, go It fair.
In the end, I did went out.
Went Balcony with Huiyu-jie.
She's really my lim jiu buddy.
Crap, I think I'm kinda addicted to alcohol.
But not drink alot, just want to have a cup every now and then type. =X

~*~
This week

Mon
- morning appt with a guy from Certis Cisco to hear about the job which he had mentioned to me like at least 2 months ago.
Feel kinda gulity actually, cuz he had informed and waoted for me so long. In the end I told him I had found a job and won't be able to help him. Best part is that, all my fernz can't help him too.
This adds fuel to fire. =X
- shopping for my office attire (wondering why do I need them??)
yupz! I shopped alone. I love shopping alone, things get done much faster and easier.
- dinner with Mr cd to celebrate his birthday.
We had dinner at Manhantten Fish market as a treat of mine.
- met up with a "i have no idea how to describe" friend.
we used to be very close and chat and crap like nobody's business, but I had no idea what happened on monday.
it was kinda bad actually, the atmosphere feels kinda wrong, topics and chit-chatting was off.
Geez, what really happened? too Long never chat?? It was only till later part then it became better. =)
My friend can really drive! Adore the car, a big family car, I didn't knew the car my friend drove was that.
But pls, can you don't keep on have the Jay Chou's style of driving with just one hand? I kept seeing you doing that. Though I didn't feel any danger!
Haha.. I'm so contradicting myself. =P

Tues
- I suddenly can't recall what I did in the morning. I only remember I did went out.
My memory is seriously failing me. I'm getting old!! 0_0
- Supposedly, this event was to be a hell of fun, joy and laughter. But but, it was so mudane that I doubted the purpose of meeting up in the end.
Originally, Liyi, Xinyi, Jerein, Ziting, Joyce and I are SUPPOSED to meet and have a belated birthday celebration with Jerein.
This was such a rare occasion that when I asked, everyone was free on that day.
So freaking excited, happy and looking forward to the day.
In the end, Xinyi said she can only come for dinner (she did said this from the beginning, so I don't blame her) But she disappeared when Liyi tried contacting her when at dinner time.
Ziting was a last minute who said she can only make it for dinner. On a super super late notice, like when we were deciding where to go for dinner, she said she can only arrive at 8plus. But she's having tution, the kid could have just changed th etiming, so I can't really blame her either.
Joyce!! The licensed pilot finally can meet and come out together with us!! BUT BUT BUT!!
She mouth itchy, went to have a sweet before leaving her house and ended up breaking in rashes due to her allegy. I can't blame that much of her too ritez, how would she know that harmless looking sweet is such a big poison??
--------------------> Conclusion: only Liyi, Jerein, Me turned up
--------------------> Result: Another date on another day

Wed & Thurs
- started working at mount faber leisure group.
- how i started work there, I'm lazy to explain again.
- Good point is I get to sit the cable car 4 times a day, whereby others have to pay so much for it
- Bad point is cable car is a waste of time and I'm already sick of it after the first day, and I have just only completed my second day. I still have to work for another 1plus month over there.

Fri
- I can finally sleep in late!! Not very late though, maybe 10am? =P
- Going out with dearest laopo

Sat
- Jocelyn's birthday celebration

Sun
- First time/try in working banquet. Wish me luck!! =D

~*~
Next Week

I will be working every day at mount faber and I already know that I have to work OT on Tuesday.

And I'm already starting to have plans for going out on next next week.
I think I'm a busy person. =P
But not till the level of very, but I would love to be very busy, to the extend of going home would be just bathe and sleep.
Okie, I think I'm really mad!! Muhahaha....!!!!

People, would someone be as kind as to tell me whether you guys can see all the stuff on my blog?
Eg. The wishlist, loves, hates, etc. And I mean all teeh words being visible and need not to be selected to be seen.

*Ce jour est le dernier jour où je vais jamais vous rencontrer.
Jamais encore.
Vous êtes ainsi hors de ma vie.
Soyez allé.*

----------> After publishing and seeing the entry, I then realised how freaking long is this entry. Oh! These days, I addicted to using the word "freaking", especially when I'm talking.
You will understand how freaking much and often I use this word when you freaking talk to me face-to-face. The amount I used is freaking unbelievable, as in comparted to other words which will be used. =P

2008-03-12T22:48:00.002+08:00

Girls!! Shopping! Shopping!
Interested in any bags? We buy together, kkz? =D
And spread teh word, cuz I think some of the bags are pretty nice.
I sound as though the person is my frenz, she's not, but she's me friend's friend.
Definitely credible, cuz I had previously bought something from her too. =)
http://voguishness.livejournal.com/

2008-03-09T13:09:00.003+08:00

Freaking get out of my life!!!

I have no idea how much longer I can stand you, but its just going to be a while more and its over..
I'm so looking forward to the end of it. No connections, no contacts, nothing at all.
I yearn for that liberation. Very very much.

2008-03-06T21:51:00.002+08:00

I so wanna go SHOPPING!!!! =X
I love to mix and match and do the designs I like and want, but money's never enough.
Oh man!
I simply adore shoes too! =D
I want more of them along with more jackets!
Okie! I'm seriously going crazy after watching 女人我最大
The show is like damn nice for the latest episodes.
I wanna repeat, SHOPPING!!!
Shopping is simply and truly love. Oh gosh..

2008-03-05T22:33:00.004+08:00

Exams are finally over.
Poly life is almost offically over (because I haven't recieve the certificate)
Celebrated the once in a lifetime last paper in polytechnic with the girls (huiyu, peiwen, joyce, rain)
No photos of anything, because I don't have a camera and my phone's seriouslly screwed.
I can't take photos with it anymore!
I need to get myself a new phone soon. And like real soon. =X

Lunch was at pasta de waraku at marina square! =)
The food is just as yummy with new dishes added in! =)
I had potato and bacon cream pasta. Yummylicious! (but..... more sauce can really be provided =P)
Like seriously for all those who have not went there yet, you should make a trip down. =D
We went cam whoring in between and arcade. =)
Then, we watched the leap years.
I have no idea why the reviews were so good, or maybe it's because I don't know how to apprecaite this type of movie.
But to me, the movie was pretty flat, not as touching as expected.
And it's really very very not touching to me and I'm a easily touched during shows person.
Haha..
The main funny point to me inside was Qi Yuwu's english. It's seriously funny but I'm not sure if his voice is subbed though.
Th part I love most was Corrinne May's song which was played in the movie, which is like so totally not the main point. =P

And after thinking for a longgggggggg time, we finally decided to go singing after the movie.
It was fun!! But we only got high towards the very end.
Technically speaking, it was only huiyu and me who got really high after one f.i.r's song.
Peiwen did got high in between with me. We were dueting by the side while huiyu (beside me) and rain was dueting.
Haha.. The ulitmate disturbance. =P

~*~

School's over!
However, there's this sense of lost and emptiness inside.
I don't hate school, I just dislike exams.
I don't mind lots and lots of projects, I love projects. But no written tests.
I don't really bond with my class but my class is pretty ok but all means.
Not too much politics that I know of, people are pretty ok, most importantly, the atmosphere is good.
You don't feel tense, don't feel nervous or dislike going to the class.
To me, that's very important. =)
I have no idea what to make of this feeling, it's really quite undescriable.
Once I start uni life, is the whole process of making friends and getting into a clique all over again.
The sense of apprehensiveness and uncertainty, I don't like.
Oh wells, this is life and life goes on with people moving from one phrase to another.
But on another note, I love working!! I really really do!
People can never understand why do I work so hard, they always ask me to slow down, but it's the feeling I truly like.
I think I'm a really workaholic deep down to my bones. Wahaha.. =P
I'm going to work real hard, do the things which I have planned and drawn out and lead the life I want.
It doesn't matters if others don't understand, my ultimate goal is to work towards the points I have set for myself at every stage and try my very best to achieve it all.
Afterall, this is my life and I live it for myself and people only get to live once.
I may disappear or not appear very often once I really start the working life I want, but friends will never be forgotten.
I will still date friends who I want to meet up.
And of cuz my dearies will be inside. =D
I seriously can't wait for the time capsule day.
Time capsule people, let's set a date asap, shall we? =D
I shall get down to the letters soon! =) Love you guys! *muacks*

Lastly, I love next week!! =D I'm so looking forward to seeing the girls, I hope it's really going to be realized.

Last lastly, I have had the weirdest dreams yesterday.
As in really really weird, why did I ever dreant of those stuff.
Hmmm...
I seriously hope it's not a sign, because of they are, I'm going to have big matters on my hand.
On the other had, the dreams had made me reflect on what I have done in the past, I knew what I did were bad, quite a bitch in fact.
But I really know how bad they were now, but sometimes, it's quite uncontrollable to me.
Wahaha... The evil me is acting up way too often these days.
But oh well... =P
I will try not to do those hurting stuff again.
But it really depends on the situation, doesn't it? =P

Oh oh!! And now I feel like having long hair, was thinking why did I cut my hair, though my hair grows quite fast (omg!! does this means I don't use my brain often?! =X ) Growing fast is not fast enough, because I want it now.. Haha.. I'm greedy. =P

PS: People, are you guys able to see my words on the entries? As in do they all blend in with the white background? Maybe it's because my lappie is slightly screwed too, but to me the words are in white and can only be seen if they are highlighted/selected. Tsk tsk.

*within the people I want to meet, it definitely does not include you. i'm like seriously unhappy within, but you have no idea. you are just like a thorn in my flesh and i do not want any contact with you at all. i'm not like you who can pretend as if nothing has happened before. I really cant, im not that good of an actress. it just seriously sucks to see you or even just to talk to you. i want you out of my life. i know never to say never, but for now, i really hope that we won't have to meet ever ever again in my whole entire life*

2008-03-01T00:00:00.003+08:00

I'm really digging my own hole. =X
I'm happily browsing through online shopping items and watching shows, when smk and pr are lying there waiting for me to hit on them strongly.
I will most definitely start on smk later, it's a must, there's not much time left.
I have found new love, but all can wait after I get my Fion wallet which I have been eyeing for a long time. =X
Here's website to see really cute cameras, whether they can really be used, that's another question.
I believe they can be used, just that the quality is quite comprising. =P
http://store.taobao.com/shop/view_shop-dba28258ebd528b42159e43c00a21de9.htm

2008-02-29T21:52:00.003+08:00

I like the lyrics of this song. =)
It's titled "make me a fool" by 棒棒堂
It's written by 小煜, a member inside.
Talented isn't he? =)

请你听听这是我想念的声音
如果你还记得那年的冬季
那件大衣口袋的温暖甜蜜
有我们握爱的手心

计算不出曾经拥抱你的距离
也许我把自己想的太聪明
原来爱情需要一点点的空气
天下着雨有人还等着天放晴

you make me a fool
我承认我对爱情有点顽固
那是因为我很在乎
你仰角看我哭
难道你就这样退出

you make me a fool
我假装看不见你给的答覆
对我来说都不算数
幸福早已迷路
不知不觉我没退路
傻的辛苦

计算不出曾经拥抱你的距离
也许我把自己想的太聪明
原来爱情需要一点点的空气
天下着雨有人还等着天放晴

you make me a fool
我承认我对爱情有点顽固
那是因为我很在乎
你仰角看我哭
难道你就这样退出

you make me a fool
我假装看不见你给的答覆
对我来说都不算数
幸福早已迷路
不知不觉我没退路
傻的辛苦

你可说我傻的可以
你可说我还没放弃
想念会让人期待着奇迹

-----> 2 papers down, 2 more to go!! Jiayou! Jiayou! Jiayou! =D
-----> I want to do something crazzzyyyyy!! =P

2008-02-25T23:37:00.003+08:00

Seriously, I have never ever met such a dumb person.
Fancy asking such a dumb question, isn't all that stuff just pure simple common sense?
Tsk tsk...
I just realised the biggest mistake I have ever made in my past 19+ years.
And the mistake is you.
If time could turn back, I wish that I have never ever met you.
But it could be a lesson which heavens is giving me, a lesson of life.
So I think I ought to treasure this lesson learnt, because all that I have learnt because of you can never be replaced.
It is all too memorable, but I wish I can forget it all and have a clean sheet with your name on top.
So that I can re-write all the stuff, and all the things that happened now, would have never happened.
It seriously sucks.

2008-02-23T23:14:00.007+08:00

Happy birthday to you!
Happy birthday to you!
Happy birthday to Peiwen...........!
Happy birthday to you!

Though it's almost over, but still I hoped that you have enjoyed yourself today. =)
Watched L with Peiwen and Huiyu today, its pretty good. =) (no worries dearest, I will still go and watch with you =P)

~*~
Photos from the day went out with laopo.

I like this dress, considering whether to purchase it. =)

I'm just trying to act innocent, disgusting, I know. Wahaha...! =P

~*~
ED is over! So it officially marks the end of all projects.
After the presentation, there is this sense of emptiness, I still do have it now, just not as strong.
It feels like everything has ended without any proper closure.
So weird to not seeing them anymore in school, except for exams.
There won't be any more school reopen days, which I can enter a class of these familiar poly people.
Though I'm anti-social and don't communicate much with my classmates, but they are afterall still my clasmates for the past 2 years.
The 2 years which neither seem short or long, 2 years of battling with projects and 2 years of growth.
Maybe, just maybe, there will be a closure, if all turns up for one classmate's 21st birthday celebration in march. =)
Now that the end is coming real soon, I wish that it won't end so quickly and so soon. =(

For now, my projects Team mates! =)

Team mates who all fought hard and long for the biggest project of the semester, Entreprenuership.
(think lots of people are going to come after me for putting this photo up, wahaha....!)

Our hands =)
Guess who's?

Lovelies who I have worked together for all projects this semester. (joyce is not inside though =X)
Except Peiwen, Huiyu for PR and Rain for HR. =)
They are the miracle team mates whom I have mentioned time and again.
Below is the video which we had for our entre =)

2008-02-21T23:09:00.003+08:00

Been far too lazy to blog these days, just a summary will do.
First and foremost, I'm crappily (if there's such a word) sick. @_@
It's really crap, been down with flu for 2 weeks, and I still see no sign of much improvements and exams are approaching fast.
Best part, night times (the time for studying) are the worst and afternoon times (the time where most people get to see me) are the most ok.
This way, no one truly believes I'm like darn sick at home.
Whatever. Being sick is not a reason.

2) Finally caught up with dearest lao po on mon.
Watched Juno.
Pretty nice, not your typical type of teenager story-movie though.
If you don't know how to apprecaite this type of movie, I think you will find it boring.
And the funniest part is that I don't understand why the guy's shorts has to be so short.

Helped her with her shopping of her D&D, it was fun shoppping and matching stuff.
But anything I do with her is love. =D
Took neoprints and lots of narcissist photos, but I'm too lazy to scan the upload them into the com.
Went for a drink at night at the bar which her friend works in.
My alcohol addiction is back, and this is really bad. =X

3) My presentations and icas are all finally finally over.
I had my last written test today. I think I didn't do that well. =X
The final ED day is on this sat, but I'm not presenting, but the best of luck to all those presenting, including my team mates.
I really think that for this past year, I had a very wonderful and miracle working team.
It was nice working with them, especially for these last few projects.
Love the way we fought and slought through.
Love the emails we sent.
Love how we work with the deadlines which were fighting against us.
Love the rules we set for ourselves.
And finally, I still remember the meal I still owe you guys.

4) I have applied for the universities. *fingers crossed*
I really do hope I will get in to the choice I really really want. =)

5) Plans after poly is pretty much drawn out, let's hope SIM won't destroy any plans.
And I really do want to go for my overseas trip. People, I'm dead serious, so those that I have asked, pls consider carefully. =)

6)Peiwen's birthday is drawing very close (23 feb, sat) and I'm still thinking what to get with Joyce. And I think what we did today is really very special and i have thought of a way of how to join all of them together, quite ex though I think.

7) Exams are in one week's time and I have barely started. But after 4th march, I would be a free lady.
Well, at least for a while. =P

Lastly, I think this so not a summary. It's toooooo long to be considered as a summary. Haha.
Last last note, to my dear friend (the one who i call doraemon and I still owe an angbao to), I have no idea what had happened, but it feels like much has happened, it's just a feel. Will try to catch up with you asap and get a good and clear understanding. I may not always be by your side, but I will always care, pray and hope for the best for you. I may not always be around, but I hope my concern and love will fly to your side, whenever it is appropriate. =) Love ya! *hugs* K-session after exams ok? Steamboat too!!
Last last last note, I'm so so sleepy, though I have slept aplenty the night before and I want my daily dose of him! It's missing today. =(

*I was completely speechless when you asked me that question that day. I have the answer, but it is such a heart breaking answer that I don't even have the courage to bring it to my lips, needless to say about saying it out. I have no idea what am I going to tell you when the time comes, but maybe, just maybe, it can silently fade away (which I know it's impossible) I ought to think of a solution and say the truth, but as the saying goes "the truth always hurts the most"*

2008-02-16T00:18:00.003+08:00

Haha.. I'm kinda late in these pics, but oh well.. =)
Late is better then never =P

My new year attire

Chu Yi's dinner

Another dinner on another chinese new year day =)

Went with them to mr. cd's house to play mahjong =)

~*~

Zi lian-ing today when waiting for my rehearsal for my skit to start =)
The skit is very very funny! =D
We had a wig! =P
And the dog above is mine, making a guest appearance in the show =)
All my project presentations are finally over!! =D
But exams are coming right up =X
For relaxation, Peiwen, Huiyu and Rain came over to my house to mahjong..

~*~

My vday present! =D
Cute Tigger! *i got tigger cuz the person said bugs bunny wouldn't look nice*
Isn't the Tigger just adorable?

2008-02-06T22:56:00.000+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!
Here's wishing all of you a very happy mousey new year ahead!! =D

I had a very very nice steamboat with my family =)

PICs ahead.......

with dearest =)

new year clothes i bought for my sis

I'm into red this year!!
Look at my red nails! =D I'm loving it!!

Once again, I wish all to have a very enjoyable, fulfilling and happy new year ahead.
Collect more, more and more Ang Baos!! =D

2008-02-05T22:21:00.000+08:00

My work on sunday was pretty fun!
It is slack and half the time I'm travelling (cuz we went to 3 locations) and not working.
Haha.. =P
It was for the mascot "Tao Shu" which is one one the series of dvds that my company sells.
I'm so obviously not the mascot, I was there to distribute balloons and give lucky dips for kids. =)
Some of the kids are so so cutez and the guys who are the moascots are quite nice too.
Heez. One of them is actually quite good looking *swoons* =P
He's 180+, has the look and build to be a model and character wise not bad either (from so far I talk to him, but I do suspect what horoscope he is from)
But, he's only 18 this year, so young lahz.
He makes me feel so old. And the mascot event is already over, so I wun get to see him again, unless I bump onto him on the streets.
But the first sentence that he talked to me was totally dotz.
He went "Ni hen shou lehz" -_-'''
I was like "Ya, ji fen shou"
Haha, at that point of time I was like those stupid pick up lines again.
Didn't got a chance to take pics with him, very weird ar, first time see ppl den wanna take pic, but I did took with Tao Shu and Ling Ling aka when they are in their costumes.
Haha.

For the first time in my entire life, I was trapped in a lift.
It happened in Tampines Mall and I was taking the lift to B3 carpark, the lift reached B3, but the door just jerk and didn't opened the door.
But quite cool also, because I get to press the alarm openly, continuously and I got to speak into the speaker too and have someone replying to me! =P
But I feel pretty bad, having to let my colleagues wait for me too =X

~*~

With regards to projects, I have nothing to say, I seriously think that my team is a miracle team, we can pull anything off, literally.
Everyone is putting as much effort as possible in, but they are always bound to be hiccups here and there =X
Now, we are stuck on our SMK, because we can't find a personal grooming boss to interview.
OMG!!! How??!
Can any kind souls or have any kind souls know anyone whom I can interview?
Personal grooming - hair salon, nails, spas and etc...

~*~

I'm going to be in red red this year, going to paint my nails red (first time ever), because I will be working this year, so I wanna HUAT ah! SO auntie ritez =P
I want to play mahjong!! Mahjong! Mahjong! Mahjong!
I'm in so so shopping mood, I just wanna keep shopping and shopping.
But is the type of shopping which can just keep trying and browsing without buying, so that's good =D

2008-02-05T01:44:00.000+08:00

Randomly, cuz I can't supress it anymore, will write actual stuff soon.
I Have Never Ever seen such a sucky ppt. Totally OMG!!
Everything's off, even the basic consistency in font size also dun have.
Not that she didn't done her work, or maybe izzit my expectations too high.
Whatever.
* And I'm a Very Very Very Tolerant person these days. Congrats me, because my temper has improved*

2008-02-03T04:22:00.000+08:00

I'm a very HAPPY girl now!! =D

Firstly, because, I'm finally done with my video!!
For those who have no idea, it is a video for my entreprenuership project.
Editing kills, in all ways, irregardless of reports or videos.
But I'm done with it! Think heavens took pity on me and today let be become clever and figure out how to do it!
Thanks much to whoever up there =D
Though it may not be very nice, very good, but it is my first attempt!
~
Secondly, is that I got back my handphone!! =)
So nice to be using back my slide-y!
~
Thirdly, I went out with my dearest laopo today!! =D
She's finally out of her "hibernation" - that's what she said =P
Went shopping and the NTU talk at Suntec and I'm pretty positive that I won't be able to get into NTU.
Haha. Oh wells, kinda expected, isn't it?
My dear girl, when I'm finally over my poly, we shall spend a long long day together, ya. =P
You won't be able to run away de. Wahaha ^_^
~
Fourthly, at long last, I don't have to go sleepless for my entre presentation!
And those that require presentation this week is all coming along quite nicely =)
Aren't I so so glad
~
Lastly, I'm working tml!
Ok, this doesn't sounds like a happy thing to some, but it is to me!
Cuz, I get to earn some dollars and on top of it, tml's job sounds fun! =D

Okie, I should go to bed and snooze, cuz I have to wake up early tml
Ta-ta kiddos!

2008-01-31T01:39:00.000+08:00

A touching story.
For those who still have their dear ones beside, treasure them.
For those who have lost them, keep them in your memory and remember all that they have done, both the seen and unseen ones.
It is often the ones that we didn't managed to see or know which helped us the most.
We often complained about what they didn't do, why can't they do this, why can't they do that?
But have we ever really sat down and though of what they had done and those done that we can never ever repay them.
I'm sorry for all that I had screamed and shouted at you guys (dearest mummy and daddy), it is always in the heat of the moment we would say stuff that we would regret utterly with no way of fixing it back. The hurt has been inflicted, damage has been done.

The Story

My mom only had one eye. I hated her... she was such an embarrassment.
She cooked for students & teachers to support the family.

There was this one day during elementary school where my mom came to say hello to me.

I was so embarrassed.

How could she do this to me?I ignored her, threw her a hateful look and ran out.
The next day at school one of my classmates said, 'EEEE, your mom only has one eye!'

I wanted to bury myself.
I also wanted my mom to just disappear.
I confronted her that day and said, ' If you're only goanna make me a laughing stock, why don't you just die?'

My mom did not respond...
I didn't even stop to think for a second about what I had said, because I was full of anger.
I was oblivious to her feelings.

I walked out of that house, and have nothing to do with her.
So I studied real hard, got a chance to go abroad to study.
Then, I got married.
I bought a house of my own.
I had kids of my own.
I was happy with my life, my kids and the comforts.
Then one day, my mother came to visit me.
She hadn't seen me in years and she didn't even meet her grandchildren.

When she stood by the door, my children laughed at her, and I yelled at her for coming over uninvited.
I screamed at her, 'How dare you come to my house and scare my children!'GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!'

And to this, my mother quietly answered, 'Oh, I'm so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address,' and she disappeared out of sight.
One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house.

So I lied to my wife that I was going on a business trip.
After the reunion, I went to the old shack just out of curiosity.

My neighbors said that she died.
I did not shed a single tear.
They handed me a letter that she had wanted me to have.

'My dearest son,I think of you all the time. I'm sorry that I came to your house and scare your children.
I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion.
But I may not be able to even get out of bed to see you.
I'm sorry that I was a constant embarrassment to you when you were growing up.
You see........when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye.
As a mother, I couldn't stand watching you having to grow up with one eye.
So I gave you mine.
I was so proud of my son who was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye.

With all my love to you,
Your mother. '

Credits: Qing Xiang's blog

*today i thought of you again. 1 year plus had gone by since the day you left, im still missing you so and till date i still very much regret i never told you how much i love you, cuz i really really do*

2008-01-28T23:57:00.000+08:00

Aren't these bags pretty?? I so wanna go Taiwan and shop..
These babies are all under SGD$20..
They are so lookable yet unattainable, so outside my reach =X
Miss Xue Mei, would you pls kindly pls some stuff back from me when you go Taiwan? =D
I will be so so grateful, but if they are too ex, obviously I will pay.. Haha.. *I'm such a wonderful daydreamer*

2008-01-28T20:26:00.000+08:00

Celebrated girlfriend's (are u still my girlfriend?? Haha) aka Xuemei's birthday yesterday =)

(the re-sizing problem ar, she is much thinner ^-^)

We went Cafe Cartel..
It's a long long story of how we ended up there..
My dear girl, when's Vienna going to happen?
After my exams can? Haha.. =P
The cake is from Swiss Bake - Chocolate Truffle..
Yummy!!

Do they look like a couple? Tell me, tell me!
Feedback to me how you guys think, ok? (luckily they have no idea of the existence of this blog =D)

The 4 of us went to watch 27 dresses after the guys left.. (they had to book in, that's the disadvantage of metting on a sunday)
The show is pretty nice.. =)

Alrights, girl, hope you had enjoyed the celebration! =)

~*~
Yes, I do really really wanna go overseas with my friends, I hope you will agree..
Why do I wanna go overseas so much? No idea, I just really feel like going overseas..
PLS PLS PLS say yes *fingers crossed* *praying*

2008-01-26T13:22:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to you!
Happy birthday to you!
Happy birthday to Xue Mei.........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Happy birthday to you!

Happy birthday, my dearest girl! =D
Stay blissful ya.. and Be super happy always!
I'm looking forward to the wedding dinner.. =P

2008-01-26T00:53:00.000+08:00

http://www.newurbanmale.com/shopping/cms.php?content=Ebay
Should I get this?
It is a limited edition tee from a collaboration of NUM with ebay, and it costs $59.90
A tad mad to pay so much for a printed tee ritez, but it is limited edition..
Damn! I only got to know of it cuz I'm doing a project on NUM, if I didn't do that project, I wouldn't know about this!!
Oh my! I'm quite crazy aren't I? And I dont have much time left for consideration, I think so..
HELP! I think the horoscope show I saw just now it so accurate..
My way of losing lots of money is through umlimitless shopping, keep buying and buying..
So so true..
But there's a problem, I don't have a paypal account, so if I wanna buy also can't buy.. =X
Advise ppl!! And any kind souls who have a paypal account??
*on a side note, I think I'm like super free, blogging every single day, I must be truly out of my mind*

2008-01-25T22:44:00.000+08:00

I want to learn how to appreciate a flute.
I want to learn how to appreciate all the small little things around me.
I want to learn how to appreciate all the actions and efforts put in for me, no matter how little they are.
I want to learn how to appreciate my dearest friends, without hurting them anymore.
I want to learn how to appreciate the art of complimenting and saying nice stuffs outright.
I want to learn how to appreciate the skills I have.
I want to learn how to appreciate. YOU.

2008-01-24T21:54:00.000+08:00

Pure Madness!!
It is really crazy!!
"O" levels reults are out.. Okie, I know this is none of my business.. But......
My sister is still in secondary school, though she's not taking "O" this year, but oh wells, this concerns her school..
She's in Cresecnt Girls, just in case you guys don't know..
She told me that her teacher told her that her school's average "O" level pointer is 9!!!
9 lehz!!! OMG can!! That is like so So SO good!
So I was asking her to pray that this year's batch will not do as good, so that her batch will not be so pressurize..
Haha.. So bad of me! =P
But anyway, she told me her seniors' results..
She said one didn't did as well, she got 10 points..
10 points lehz!! And is call did not did as well, because, the other got 7 points!!
The best part is this is before any eligible deduction, and she says they each can get 2 points off..
Oh my!! Why are kids these days so smart?? Aren't I glad they are not my batch..

~*~

I think I really look very ugly in pics, dun wanna take pics anymore.. Haha..
So if wanna see me, meet in real person.. Cuz I think I look much better in real life.. Haha..
Okie, I know ren mei even take picsc also will pretty, but ar, no choice, I only "prettier" in real life..
So must meet me in real life..
This also mean sthat I can't have cyber relationships, because they can also see my pic, not real life, and first impression is very impt, you know..
Ok, super random.. Lalalala..

2008-01-23T21:38:00.000+08:00

I LOVE my joyceeeeeeeeee!!
I seriously have no idea what am I going to do without her..
And I just realised how useless I really am..
Far too sheltered and dumb..
Knowledge on matters = 0
I should grow up, be capable and fulfil what I say..

2008-01-21T23:04:00.000+08:00

I'm going to be zi-lian and a tad too self confident.
Cuz I really sincerely feel that I'm not the slightest bit photogenic, so I look pretty bad in photos.
Haha... Make your own inference by the meaning of the above sentence =P

My hair, which is really only visible under strong sunlight.
So it has really been a waste of money.

I really like my current hair (the hair length, the fringe and everything)
But super not visible from pics, cuz I had actually cut it much shorter

~*~

We had our first veedeo taking session for entreprenuership today, we had fun along the way =)
Our first destination and also our lunch =)

~*~

Mummy's birthday! On the suggestion of my sis, we went nihon musa.
Yes, I'm there again (seated at the exact table) for another birthday celebration
I should stop eating so much jap food.
I should be having more variety of food in my life!! Haha...

Mummy and I

Daddy and I

Mummy and sis

Acting funny (this was supposed to be posed, but it turns out that they were really fascinated and looking at something at that "somewhere direction")

Acting funny ( I seriously had no idea what are we doing)

Is the song nice??

Last but not least, the super yummylicious cheesecake from Polar Cakes and Puffs.
It's called Marble Cheesecake, cheap ($19.80) and nice! =D

2008-01-20T18:59:00.000+08:00

I have soooooooo many projects on hand, but from the way I'm doing them, it doesn't seems that way..

It's a miracle (for now), cuz I will be rushing like mad in the end.. Haha..

I hope my new hair colour brings my luck (very much needed!)..

I just highlighted it though, not whole head (though I had initally wanted to do so, maybe after my poly =P)

The best part is, I think it is only visible under the sunlight (this sounds like a waste of money)..

~*~

AND, I still have yet to bring my phone for repair, I'm dragging it wayyyyyyyy too long.. =X
BUT, Sony Ericsson is coming out with purple phones!

Purple, people! But, the one which is most purple, doesn't seems to have very good functions..

Oh my! How how?? Wait for them to come up and see the real phone I guess, cuz they are still coming soon..

W380i (purple! but.................)

W890i (the back of it is purplish)

W760 (it has the best functions)

http://www.sonyericsson.com/cws/products/mobilephones

Go see, go see.. I need opinions AND money!!

~*~

I saw a print advertisment by sisley and I totally love the it!

Super nice, but I'm too lazy to scan it in.. Maybe next time.. =P

2008-01-18T23:06:00.000+08:00

If it is really something so unbreakable, then why say those words so easily?
Why let them came out so easily, as though they are just normal casual talk?
It is all about trust, you said, and the end conclusion is?
You dont trust me. Ask yourself, if you did, would what happened, happened?
Forget it. Gone.
*im a great big liar, isnt it? if i dont mind the least bit, not thinking of it, i wouldnt even be thinking it out loud.. and im just quoting quoting, quoting.............. not my stuff*

We did what we used to do ytd, even how we talk is the same, it just felt different.
I'm sorry that I feel jealous, and is feeling sour over ___, but I can't control how I really want to feel.
I'm possessive and just want to have you all by myself, selfish aren't I?
This is how I feel, but I'm not doing it. It won't help matters.
But I'm still glad you told me all those, still open your heart to me.
But I wonder, am I still the only one who has stepped into your circle?
Or has ___ stepped in too?
Ok, I know, it's all about me, me and more me.
About how I feel, since I can't possibly ask you how you feel.
Grrr, this is a sooooooooooooooo not nice feeling.

* i have fallen in with the men i didnt marry*

2008-01-16T21:06:00.000+08:00

I'm falling apart!!! =X
Okie..........
I mean my health is falling apart..
I seriously have not been sick for this often in my whole entire life (starting from the part which i remember, eh.................. but................... i have no complete memory for my whole primary school, does this means i only start remembering stff from secondary school??!!)
Anyway, I really Really REALLY HATE being sick this often, though not major illness, but it is seriously hindering my speed of doing my projects!
I can't think straight, I can't speak straight, soon I won't even be able to walk straight..
I really dread falling sick..
Im like sick once at least every fortnight..
Harlow??!! This is really ridiculous, I used to be one who never fall sick for the whole year..
I must be really getting old..
This really sucks..
Projects as usual are not letting me go..
Im like a dog with a leash on, except on the other side of an owner, it is the pile of projects (with extra tight deadlines)
Bottom bottom line---------------------------------------->
I really hate being sick! Blame it on my sensitive nose and recent weak constitution.. =X
* im just drawing a blank, a blank blank blank blank. i dislike this feeling, throughly. *

2008-01-13T23:12:00.000+08:00

At times like this, I would wish that you were here by my side.
When I'm busy up to my neck, wanting just someone to be by my side, just whispering simple words of comfort.
But, you were never here, never ever, just like non existent.
*can "someone" just comfort me a tiny little bit, but i know it's never going to happen*

2008-01-10T01:55:00.000+08:00

The words repeated the most in my head these days are projects, project and more projects!! =X
The amount of projects can really bury someone under and I'm striving hard not to collapse under the weight of it =)
I'm super productive today today and I'm loving it =D
It seems like my energy and momentum is back!

Meeting them was the right decision =)
Had lunch at Swensens with my ex-colleagues during my attachment.
It was fun and as enjoyable as ever =)
Miss those days and I miss them too, but i guess this would probably be the last time I will be meeting them there as quite a few are leaving.
AND a very big thanks to them for all the help they had given and the assistance they are going to provide me with in the future ( I can predict I will continue to trouble them, haha =P )

I'm going to do a little projects dance and head off to continue the journey of completing projects
Woo-la-la! Woo-la-la! Woo-la-woo-la-eh!

2008-01-07T19:37:00.000+08:00

Things are sure complicated now..
Too many projects, far too little time..
And the stupid flu attack is bad, sucks!
Always when I when I have the motivation to do the important stuff, i would be sick, distracting my concentration, clouding my mind.
Super irritating..
To add, too much has been going on, too much in my head..
I cant even think straight and plan a pack and useful schedule for the day..
Pls go away flu monster, I desperately need my mind..
And I have gotten lots of advice from various people these few days, lots of thanks to them, cuz I troubled them to help me with this and that, and I think it is just the beginning..
Haha..
Im looking forward to wed! Hopefully, I will something to look forward in July too! =)
Jiayou! Jiayou! Jiayou! to me and all who are being buried in projects too.. =)

2008-01-04T01:16:00.000+08:00

I'm a super duper lousy researcher!
I'm always in the situation whereby I am unable to find the information that I want, yet when i asked, others can find.
I'm so going to be "shoot" to death either openly or in the dark by my team mates, because I said alot, but is unable to produce any stuff out.
I bet they are going to say that I am just an all talk no action person.
In addition, my design cells are gone, just great, how great.
I hate the feeling of wanting and knowing that so much can be done (since no one know what's going through my mind), yet I am unable to do anything, just because I cant portray what I wanna portray, can't translate my ideas properly into words for others to understand, unable to design out the concepts and designs I have in my mind, want to get so much information, yet I am unable to get any (without these information, I won't have things to substinate the points which I know is going to bring about talks).
This sucks big time.

2008-01-01T00:05:00.000+08:00

Short (shorter) hair Mel hereby wishes all peeps a very happy happy 2008!!!

ps: do i look weird in short (shorter) hair? (i look very weird in this pic, okie, i know, not weird, it's fat.. haha...!!) hmmm, it looks very different in real life, in pic it looks much longer.. do cameras have the effect of lengthening your hair?? *wonders*

and I look different (from above) in this photo

its so weird!!

and this is on christmas, i look so much better.. grrr!! what happened??!!

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>woooshes off......... *im crazy*

2007-12-31T21:26:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2008!!! =D

My new year resolution is to
- have more determination and motivation
- keep the promises which I made to myself
- do all the things that I wanna do
- hopefully no more regrets
- start the "project" which have been in the talks for quite a while
- become prettier and have a better figure (haha, seems quite impossible sia, cuz all this is fixed already =P )
- shall keep this for my own knowledge *...............*

Recently feel in love with this show 斗牛,要不要
Super nice!
Besides having the pretty hebe inside, the show is nice too =)
The songs are nice too!

《鬥牛》片尾曲 - 你最近还好吗 by s.h.e

挑一張耶誕卡寫上滿滿祝福的話
地址寫的是心底你能不能收到它
天有點冷風有點大城市寧靜而喧嘩
這一個冬天我得一個人走回家
問自己習慣了嗎
沒有你每到夜裏回聲變得好大
有沒有什麽好方法讓寂寞更聽話
你最近還好嗎是不是也在思念裏掙紮
你說會記得我還記得嗎你
最近還好嗎
忙碌嗎累嗎心還會痛嗎
如果真不得已忘了
快向快樂出發
我有再多的牽掛都已沒有權利表達
舊情人給的問候比陌生人還尷尬
昨天遠了明天還長回憶模糊但巨大
這樣的深夜眼淚要怎樣不流下
問自己習慣了嗎
沒有你每到夜裏回聲變得好大
有沒有什麽好方法讓寂寞更听话
你最近還好嗎
是不是也在思念裏掙紮
你說會記得我還記得嗎
你最近還好嗎忙碌嗎累嗎
心還會痛嗎如果真不得已忘了我
快向快樂出發
你最近還好嗎
是不是也在思念裏掙紮
你說會記得我還記得嗎
你最近還好嗎
忙碌嗎累嗎心還會痛嗎
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快樂出發

来不及 by hebe ( a solo by her, has a rock edge to it)

今天早上起床脑袋一冲动脸越涨红
是不是昨天晚上做了什么害羞的梦
或许是粉红色荷尔蒙在血液中流动
你呼吸我激动
轻飘飘雨提醒着我们身在不同天空
于是好的伤痛是否能说不碰就不碰
我想犹豫不决比飞蛾扑火还更堕落
重不重痛不痛
理智为爱失踪
来不及每个脚步已踩着恋爱的节奏
来不及地球转动不会为谁等候
来不及回头检查旧的伤口
如果找借口想太多
没结果哭也没用
今天早上起床你是否觉得全身酸痛
是不是我爱上你让你觉得全身紧绷
或许是你太调皮到我梦中随便窜动
你跳进我时空
轻飘飘雨果然不出所料提醒动了我
于是好的伤痛压抑要有梦就不会痛
我想犹豫不决永远不会是我的作风
疯不疯痛不痛就算我犯了
错来不及脑海早就烙印了你完美轮廓
来不及赶快捕捉为你放的烟火
来不及已把多爱你的冲动变成了享受
我想要解脱要自由要冲动
来不及每个脚步已踩着恋爱的节奏
来不及地球转动不会为谁等候
来不及回头检查旧的伤口
如果找借口想太多
没结果哭也没用

爱来过 by s.h.e

我看不开也放不开
因为我曾见过爱情真的盛开我
要等待一直等待
等那一个夜晚从回忆回来当你拥抱着我那一瞬间
我象飞到空中而当我缓缓降落我不再是我
我有了梦我在梦中
爱来过来得那么美那么凶
欢呼着从我生命狠狠碾过
连遗憾也都不争气的珍惜成笑容
爱来过让我完整过幸福过
怎么能轻易就放他走
我不想解脱我只怕错过
我就是要等你回来爱我
寂寞喧哗我不害怕
因为我只听得见对你的牵挂
世界很大会容得下
我这小小傻傻顽固的信仰
你有没有过承诺我已忘了那已不重要了
反正我都会守候在梦中守候
我最唯一最美的梦
爱来过来得那么美那么凶
欢呼着从我生命狠狠碾过连遗憾
也都不争气的珍惜成笑容
爱来过让我完整过幸福过
怎么能轻易就放他走
我不想解脱我只怕错过
我就是要等你回来
如果需要动用奇迹来交换美丽
就让泪蒸发下成雪花和我一起在爱中被融化
爱来过来得那么美那么凶
欢呼着从我生命狠狠碾过连遗憾
也都不争气的珍惜成笑容
爱来过让我完整过幸福过
怎么能轻易就放他走
我不想解脱我只怕错过我就是要等你回来
爱来过来得那么美那么凶
欢呼着从我生命狠狠碾过连遗憾
也都不争气的珍惜成笑容
爱来过让我完整过幸福过
怎么能轻易就放他走我不想解脱我只怕错过
我就是要等你回来
爱我
等你回来
爱我

Okie, it seems like I'm gonna put all the songs here =P
But these 3 are the ones I like the most (eh, but 3 can't be counted as the most ritez? haha)
背影 by 林宥嘉 nice too! =D

棒棒堂

They release a new album! =D
The album's title is <哪里怕>
Okie, after a long time, they are not as shuai as before, but still make pretty ok eye candy =P
Esp 敖犬 =)
I hope they will come Singapore soon, ya. So that I can see if they are really as good looking as on tv =)
And they are going to open a concert at 小巨蛋, it sounds kinda crazy though.
Because to me, their experience is still not there yet, so are their skills.
But effort is always the best antidote to all problems, so I believe their efforts will pay off. =)

Their new song , eh, their singing skills is really not there, but the tune is catchy =)

HAY SAY YES 接受邀請(YO BE MY GUEST)
陌生或熟悉我們通通歡迎
HAY WELCOM 誰都可以(YA LET'S GO PARTY)
隨著快樂的痕跡踏上階梯
下一秒天和地
零距離

我彷彿剛剛學會了飛行
俯瞰你躲在城市的陰影
頂著頭上的烏雲慢慢的爬行
你嘗過酸甜苦辣的點心
別讓給眼淚太多的比例
難過是一頁日曆很快就過

期節奏慢一點地球不會停
(其實它比你更想休息)
彩虹間滑翔別急著落地

HAY SAY YES 接受邀請(YO BE MY GUEST)
陌生或熟悉我們通通歡迎
HAY WELCOM 誰都可以(YA LET'S GO PARTY
)隨著快樂的痕跡踏上階梯
下一秒天和地
零距離

我身上背著陽光的使命
要通緝所有悲傷的聲音
讓眼淚換成代幣
加入這遊戲

是誰說青春是短暫光陰
其實他根本永遠不過期
脫下潮濕的雨衣很快就放晴節

奏慢一點地球不會停
(其實它比你更想休息)
彩虹間滑翔別急著落地

HAY SAY YES 接受邀請(YO BE MY GUEST)
陌生或熟悉我們通通歡迎
HAY WELCOM 誰都可以(YA LET'S GO PARTY)
隨著快樂的痕跡踏上階梯
下一秒天和地
零距離

COME ON SAY YES (X4)
RAP:
SAY
怪可怪
非常怪
你的臉
明明不愉快
覺得怪
去拜拜
耍無奈
還期待意外
趁現在
我還在
上門來治好你的壞
BE MY GUEST
要就快
我等你一起HIGH

SAY YES 接受邀請
陌生或熟悉我們通通歡迎
WELCOME 誰都可以
隨著快樂的痕跡踏上階梯
下一秒天和地
零距離

HAY SAY YES 接受邀請(YO BE MY GUEST)
陌生或熟悉我們通通歡迎
HAY WELCOM 誰都可以(YA LET'S GO PARTY)
隨著快樂的痕跡踏上階梯
下一秒天和地
零距離

Still have another song, <我们之间>, its pretty nice, because it is about their bonding with each other, but I can't find the lyrics.

Haha, I seem like promoting lots of songs today, actually still want to put another singers, but it would feel like this is a lyrics entry, wouldn't it? =P (haha, though I know it is already one)

2007-12-28T21:59:00.000+08:00

I got my laptop back!! =D
Though it costs a bomb =X
I got a bugs bunny hp casing! Like finally after so long, it "came out" =D
AND, people, pls support yu zhe's book! Because it is really nice!
Besides him looking ultra shuai in it, it is a nice book, it is a movie book (movie/show in the form of a book), it is something very different from what normally artises would release =)

and yep, im emo in the previous entry, those who know who im referring to will know, emo cuz i still unable to fully recover from that matter, though it is just a small/minor matter to some, but just simply because it hurts, im still upset over it, but oh wells, not going to dwell on it, since the person will never know, since im not going to tell the person upfront

*sometimes it is through oberservance that you get your answer and not by questioning, if only you are able to feel how i felt*